Kaiden

Kaiden 1d

Meaning

I used to say my life lost its meaning,
But im not sure if it even had it in the first place.

I feel like i took the meaning away myself, and im too tired to give it a new one

#life #meaning

Kaiden 1d

Mother

I miss your love,
Your voice that made all the pain go away,
Your hands that always knew how to make something
Out of nothing.

Now i only get your hate,
Your voice that causes me pain
And your hands that hit me for not being perfect.

I just want her back, at least for 5 minutes

#mother

Kaiden 1d

Father

You stole my childhood,
My innocence,
The little boy that was still learning his body parts.

"he's your father, forgive him" would you forgive him if he did it to you? I don't ******* think so.

#sa #**** #trauma

Kaiden 1d

Write my life

I wish i could
Write my own life
Without someone else holding the pen

Free will doesn't really exist in this world

#life #freewill

Kaiden 1d

Words

Words, as beautiful as they are,
Can't capture the feeling of relief
After harming the skin you were given
By "God".
They'll never capture the guilt
After putting the tool away,
The feeling of being cared for while you clean your own cuts,
The promise of never doing it again,
And the betrayal of your own words

Bruh i wanna be able to write better againnnnn, writer's block is a *****💔

#sh

Kaiden 1d

"Just one last time"

It's been 4 years.

Over time it went from "just this once" to "deeper" and i really dont know how to quit tbh

#selfharm #sh

1d

RED

A Happy Ending

❝Isn’t the ending of a lovely story supposed to have all the bad guys die? For example, you, or me…❞
there won’t be anyone left to tell the story.

Maybe we’re all villains in someone’s chapter, heroes in our own, and just background noise in most. Maybe a lovely story isn’t one without bad guys, but one where even they learn to hold a flower without crushing it.