Kaiden Lewis

1d

Vesper

Fat

Sitting
Crying
Wishing less
Wanting more
I can't hide myself anymore
The sweatshirts too small
My body too big

Wishing the hurtful words would stop
Not just from you but me
I feel as if I'm going to pop

Skipping meals
Drinking soda
Eating salad
Having dessert

I tell myself that they don't notice
But I think they do

Kaiden Lewis 1d

Adults

Adults.
Some are smart,
Yet some are not.
Fighting over their tiny problems,
Killing people,
Just to make a point.
Nuclear weapons used as
Tiny threats,
Childrens use when you steal their toy.
Censoring people's lives,
Because you have the power.

I still can't believe they chose a **** ****** as their president

#deny #defend #depose

Kaiden Lewis 1d

Untitled

You say that i don't try,
And I'm trying really hard.
Even tho you don't see me cry,
I am falling apart.

I wrote this when i was 12 or 13

6d

Nobody

flashbacks

i'm breathing fast
i'm seeing the past
things i don't want to remember
hit me like a blast

anxiety rising
breath denying
i'm hearing their words
i feel like i'm dying

their words hit me like a stab
i crunch like a crab
that they stepped on
i feel a jab

words bleed out of my chest
as i remember what i don't want to
i'm not ready
wait... just let me

try
to
forget

Kaiden Lewis 7d

Perfect child

Good grades,

Clean clothes,

Obedient behavior.

Perfect child.

So why do you hurt them so much?

You do everything they want but they still have a problem.

#perfect #child

7d

Kindinheart

Trauma

Trauma leaves a mark
That cannot be erased
Stays with you forever
Something not to be praised
But time is a healer
The memory with time fades
You cannot forget
What caused that trauma
That made that imprint
Which stays in your mind

Kaiden Lewis 7d

The feeling after

They talk about the act,

But never the feeling after.

They don't talk about the guilt,

The blood sticking to your sleeve.

The cleaning up after

Or the simple lack of it.

They don't talk about people asking,

And you saying it's because of the cat,

Half a million times.

A lot of people forgets that it's not just "cutting for fun", it's a bunch of other stuff.

#sh