It all happened so fast
I turned my back and you were gone
A moment in time I can never get back
a moment I can never change
You did nothing wrong, it wasn't your fault
you waited until the light turned red.
He thought he could make it
but he failed
he hit you so hard, paramedics said it was instantaneous
but I don't believe, I can see the the pain in your eyes each time I close mine
you did nothing wrong
it wasn't your fault
now your gone
my best friend
x

Will we know,
When we say goodbye,
That it is goodbye?
Or will it be just like any other day
Saying goodbye
Thinking I know
That I will see your face again
When I won’t
When I’ll never hear your voice again
And you’ll never hear mine
Will we know
When everything we are stops existing?
Will we know?

I stare out the window wishing you'll come walking 
around that wall
Where are you 
For a short time I felt secure with you 
Did I do something to deserve the blank numb stares I give outside?
I'm obsessed and down at the same time 
Wishing non stop every minute of the days that pass for you to come back 
My heart is wrenched and slowly breaking 
Turning kneads into bitter broken leaves 
My poetry is sad
You're the one I want please be who I hope and who I was so sure of that you'd be 
I feel you watching me 
I'm sure you're not 
I promise I think he's my love 
Another husband? 
No. Security is what I felt 
I didn't question it 
he is it 
There I go looking out that window again
Come sit and wait for me like you once did 
Come see the rainbow after the storm the way you did 
Come snuggle my cheeks the way you once did 
Come lay with me tell me how amazing it feels to just be together 
Why did I ruin it
Alcohol 
It ruins more than livers
I can't walk anywhere without you in my front mind
I can't walk for myself without you 
I'm walking with the blues I have for you 
Looking again 
Is it him 
I'm obsessed.

surrounds me
and
centers me