don't call me old til 75
and only then,
if still alive;
only then
i'll let you drive
to florida -
the west keys,
and only then,
if i please.

i sleep late -
i seldom rise
without the help
of pfizer.

i soak my teeth
i wear a diaper
you think
it's yours
ever after
that's if the kids
agree.

yes, i have property
on the lake,
income rentals
you'd like to take,
but the kids,
they won't agree.

i am daddy,
sugar-coated,
yes, i know
my ego's bloated,
yet you signed on
for free,
but there's a hidden fee;
leave your family.

and you thought
lunch was free.

"You're a 10, baby," I say to my burnt fingers.

I tried my best to break the silence
But you refused to listen
All you did was leave........repeatedly
EVERY TIME
Every......*******.........******* time.......
I try to make you realize what is going on
But you just......do not care

So why should I

I shouldn't

But I ******* do

I do and all it does is hurt me.

And if I leave you I'll hurt me
If you leave me you'll hurt me
If I stay I'll hurt me
If you stay you'll hurt me

So no matter what

It
Still
Hurts

So I'll just sit here and let my soul fade and my heart continuously burst to pieces
While your presence or absence will mock me
And I'll just cry
And hurt
On the inside
And suffer

Because I know before we fell apart, I tried myself, to keep us together.

*"My love for you was bulletproof but you're the one that shot me"