She didn't say my name like you,
In fact, she hardly said a word.
I opened my arms,
But kept my heart closed,
Kissed her skin but not her,
I couldn't bring myself
To look her in the eyes.
She saw just as much of me
As I saw of her,
And that's not much in
A dark room.

I tried to erase your name
From my vocabulary,
Tried to stay up late
So I wouldn't dream about
The things I thought we
could be.

She made me feel like
There are other people
Who don't belong.
I wasn't the only one
With half a heart caught up
On constellations,
We're all a little scared,
She made me feel,
like 3am with her
Was somewhere to belong.

I tried to forget the way
You'd laugh,
But please understand
That you made me feel
Whole for a while
So
It was hard to walk away.
It still is.

She said she wished
Someone would write
About her the way
I write about you.
She said you must be
The most beautiful
Girl in the world.
I told her
I romanticize
Things.

I haven't seen your smile
in a while,
and i dont want to.
I forgot the way you'd
say my name.

Hold me the way Arizonans hang to clouds
during monsoons,
The way bards capture
moments into creation,
The way wings catch air.

Run your fingers over the scars
on my skin you never knew about,
Don't ask,  just feel.

Whisper sweet nothings into my ear,
Make me believe in a better time than now.
Show me
that this
is only
the beginning
to long nights
spent in each other's
breaths,

Breathe me.

Kiss the darkest corners of my mind,
Take it all.
Take the pillows, the mattress,
The clothes,

I only want you.

Replace the noose around my neck
With your arms,
Tell me it'll be okay.
Lie to me.