i may not be who you will marry
i may not be the perfect girl
but years from now
you will remember
the girl you kissed on the roof
who you wrote love letters for
and you'll remember the way
i always bit your lip
or laughed when we kissed
you'll remember the thread
i wore on my ankle
or the toe ring i wore on my right foot
you'll remember the way
i would watch you fall asleep
because it was beautiful
to me.
you will remember this
for no particular reason
maybe you just wanted a trip down memory lane
and maybe you'll regret the trip
and maybe you'll regret letting
me go
when i tried too hard to keep you.

First to answer such a question as
What is it that I want?
There must be an understanding of the word I

Simply put,
I means you
And you means I
I is we
I is all
All life can be described with these words
But they all mean the same thing
I, you, we, us,
A single central self-centered species

Now to understand what I want
We must then define want

There is more to want than desire or lust
Want simply put is new
New is the very basic form of want
Take a video game for example,
You may desire this game as much as you **** well please,
At the end of the day when you finish the game no matter what game it is,
It becomes not new
And you go and play the next game

With these basic ideas of I and Want
Now it can be discussed what it is I want.

I don't want world peace
Or the next new piece technology
Those are shallow desires
Yes these would be nice things to have
But it won't stay new for long
And that is why we stride for them instead of focusing on what it is I want

What I want
Simply put,

Is to find out what I want.

in a moment of safety
securely unknown
I ask
what value the scarring hard earned
and when I surrender
what harm that I've lost my edge
since I know nothing
what of the wisdom
I blindly vow to share
timely or timeless
a breath of the essence
nourishing fragrance of care