Jolene Perron

Jolene Perron Jan 2011

I walk into a room,
and what a surprise.
I find you sitting,
just before my eyes.

Playing your music,
not soft and sweet.
But it's still enough,
to knock me off my feet.

I wave a gentle hello,
but then turn around.
I've lost the strength,
that once I'd found.

I race upstairs,
holding in tears.
And when I reach lonliness,
I left go of my fears.

I climb up in a window,
where I sat long ago.
And embrace emotions,
as they start to flow.

The tears keep falling,
and now I can't hide.
All the feelings for you,
I've kept inside.

When I sit next to you,
I want to lean towards.
Give you a kiss,
move a relationship forward.

I'm a mess, don't you know,
I don't know what to do.
Because, I'm an idiot,
and I think I'm in love with you...

Jolene Perron Jan 2011

Why Can't You See This?

You know that girl,
the one that you're with.
You've given her chances,
more than she even deserves.
And yett, still, you're with her,
when you have someone else.
Someone who's standing infront of you,
staring you in the eyes.
Someone who wants everything,
that you want and more.
Someone who believes in you,
even when everything's wrong.
Who understands when you're upset,
when things go wrong.
And she's always there,
like she has been for years.
she never left your side,
even when you left hers.
When you pulled that disappearing act,
but then suddenly returned.

This girl, the one you're with,
how many chances have you given her?
How many times have you wasted,
chance after chance.
Night after night coaxing her,
apologizing for your 'wrongs'.
Listening to her apologize,
but I know it means nothing.

Everytime I hear you talk about her,
I cringe, my heart speeds up.
I feel my blood coarsing through my veins,
I feel the heat rushing to my cheeks.
This is wrong, don't you see?
you're just not meant to be together.
Why can't you see that ?
why don't you just walk away?

She does nothing but hurt you,
and it kills me.
It kills me to see you hurt like that,
after all these years.
After watching her yell at you,
after hearing her talk about you.
I can't stand it,
I can't help it.

I just want you,
here.
With me tonight,
now.

**Why can't you see that?

Jolene Perron Jan 2011

Two-Faced Player

See that girl over there,
in the corner of the room.
She acts like she knows,
everything about you.

She talks behind our backs,
but she never confronts us.
Acting all that,
for her, it is a must,

But you've never told her much,
to do with your life.
And the words she says about you,
are only out of strife.

And when she speaks to you,
she says her words with a smile.
When we both know,
she's nothing but a liar.

Her face, it's doubled,
one in front and behind.
A face she puts on,
and one she tries to hide.

Because to all of them,
it's someone certain she has to be.
She's not truthful like us,
nothing like you or me.

But she'll go on with words,
the stories she's saying.
To her, it's nothing,
just a life with which she's playing.

Jolene Perron Jan 2011

All The People

Have you ever really looked,
at the people all around.
With stories and lives,
their minds profound.

The teen mom,
with a baby on her hip.
Thin and lanky,
bruises and a fat lip.

Struggling to get away,
from the abusive man she's with.
She screams all night long,
"I've had enough!"

And the man, abusing,
the teen with the baby.
He might just be struggling too,
maybe, just maybe.

All he knows is abuse in life,
that's all his father did.
To his mother, all along,
since he was just a kid.

The man in the corner,
sitting alone today.
Wondering if his life,
if it will ever be okay.

His friends, they pressure,
him into the drugs, the steriods.
They tell him "Just one hit,
what are you, scared, boy ? "

The girl down the street,
struggling to fit in.
Her clothes, her looks,
they don't match the other kids.

She's different, she's dark,
and she keeps to herself.
But she wants to be like them,
it's a need she can not help.

Lying beneath the surface,
there is a storm inside.
In him, in her,
even one that is mine.

Everyone struggles,
to be who they are.
To get what they want,
to make it this far.

Have you ever looked,
at the people all around.
Their minds, complex,
their stories, profound.

Jolene Perron Jan 2011

I Want More

I'm walking down the street,
cars passing by.
As I think of the days,
the times you were mine.

Don't you realize,
how much I miss you ?
Wishing you were here with me,
in all that I do.

Maybe, just maybe,
I want you to talk to me.
Make an effort to be here,
don't you see?

I've fallen like a fool,
for you, my dear.
Oh darling, why can't you,
be around to gather my tears.

As I walk down the street,
in compelete darkess it seems.
I'm alone, I'm alone,
falling apart at the seams.

I'm spiraling into a world unknown,
unlike those before.
You say we're friends, but hunny,
I can't help wanting more.

Jolene Perron Jan 2011

Drawing The Line

You talk of her,
that girl you're with.
My feelings for you,
I've tried to dismiss.

All this time,
you know how I've felt.
But for me I put,
my feelings on a shelf.

You tell me of her,
your arguments and fights.
As I look out the window,
into the night.

"What's the point,
of being together.
When you can't fix the storm,
you've tried to weather?"

You tell me you don't know,
that you're really unsure.
You both know it's over,
you being with her.

But no one has the guts,
to just pull the plug.
And you don't want,
to be the one.

"Grow some *****,
won't you please?"
In my mind,
I'm begging on my knees.

"Fine I will!", you say,
as you lean in towards me.
I can feel my heart flutter,
then sink down to my feet.

A silence falls,
between me and you.
I'm at lost for words,
or what to do.

"Listen," I say,
as I look toward your eyes.
"I can't be with someone,
within a million lies...

"I can't be with someone,
who can't be with my fully.
Until you break up with her,
this is how it is, hunny."

I look out the window,
as I begin to cry.
I don't know if you realize,
how much I wish you were mine.

Jolene Perron Jan 2011

This is, I am, You Are...

You're confusing,
and you make my head spin,
and anger is only rising.
You're the only one,
who only hurts me,
with this pointless goodbyeing.
And I want your touch,
and only you,
this feeling hurts so much.
You say one word,
but then you replace it,
the truth from some girl.
You finally get it out,
the truth I want,
as I begin to shout.
And now, I have,
what I wanted all along,
from this stupid mishap.
But I have to console,
me by myself,
in this world alone.

You're amazing,
you're sweet,
and oh so charming.
Your eyes,
they're gorgeous,
I wish you were mine.
Making me fall into you,
making me a fool.
with all you say and do.

Now I sit here,
comtemplating life,
shedding tears.
Holding the blade,
inches away,
decision to be made.
Knowing I'm giving in,
spiraling into addiction,
regretting all my sins.
That old addiction I've fought,
kept away for months,
Forgetting all I was taught.

This is me,
this is failure,
this is falling apart.
These are thoughts,
I can't expresses,
Hidden in my heart.

T'here's not really a consistant rhyming scheme to this poem, I know, but I was aiming for expression.