**** happened
Happened to both you and me
Me a bit less
Less than you
You're amazing
Amazing like my first
First shower of monsoon
Monsoon bringing hope
Hope of us
Us being infinite
Infinite.

Don't approach a dog unknown to you
Holding out your hand, making eye contact
You may frighten him
Let him come to you

Don't write a poem uninspired
It won't work out
In good time
Let it come to you

Don't go out there seeking love
Like a child with a butterfly net
Live your life
Let it come to you

If you loved me like you told me
Be careful with my heart
You can take it
Just don't break it
Cause my world would fall apart

I can't love you
I have no love to give
Realize before
I break you further
I'm the abominable fear
I once had in my head
Please stop
Before I hurt you
Go away
No Don't
Stay
But stay away from me.

I might as well be yelling, shouting, screaming at the rate this is going
Cursing the very ground you walk on
I could hand you my heart in a velvet box
and you would look at it as you would a keychain from Las Vegas

I might as well be laughing
Is there any more to do in such a situation?
Shoving your head against a wall will make you feel something, but the wall isn't going to budge

I might as well be sleeping, or trying
It would be so much more productive than lying here,
surrounded by all these bags of unanswered questions and imaginary conversations

In fact
I might as well be silent
Because no matter how heavy my restrained love may get to carry, or how paper thin my walls become around you,
no matter how desperately I hold your gaze or how genuinely you caress me in my dreams
You still refuse to take a fair risk
or give a fair chance

Missing you is the hardest thing of all,
Because before it happens there is only numbness,
And then once I start missing you it feels like my heart breaks all over again,
And the pain is overwhelming.

One blunt, two blunts, three blunts, four,
One shot, two shots, three shots, more.

Keep going, keep going, don't stop.
Drown the pain of missing him,
Before it wins,
And drowns you.

It ***** because I really want to talk to you,
For hours, just to hear your voice,
Just to get a bit of happiness in my dark world,
But I cant && I'm torn.

Cigs,
Alcohol,
Mary Jane,
It's what I need
To drown the pain.

You say they're bad,
But I say they're good.
You tell me to quit,
If I cared I would.