You are the thought that starts each morning,
The conclusion to each day.
I think of you with all I do,
And everything I say.

You are the smile on my face,
The twinkle in my eye.
The warmth inside my heart,
The fullness in my life.

The only hand that is part of mine,
The coat upon my back.
My friend and love you have my soul,
I never will turn back.

You are the dimple in my cheek,
The tingle in my soul.
The voice that makes me weak,
You're the one that makes me whole.

You are all that I have ever wanted,
and all that I will need.
You are all that I think of,
You mean so much to me.

Insane?
Hallucinations and voices.
I think I'm seeing
Something now.
Look! There it is.
What?
You can't see it?
No, I swear
I'm not insane.
It's right there!
A little girl,
Black hair,
Victorian dress.
She's looking at us,
From across the hall.
She's mumbling something.
As she walks closer.
Where is she going?
I think she's coming,
Towards us.
Wait!
Where did you go?
Please don't leave!
Oh no,
The little girl.
She has a knife.
Please come back!
I need your help!
Where did you go?
You just disappeared.
The girl,
I can hear her now.
She's mumbling about
Death
She's lifting the knife.
Where are you?
I need you now.
She's attacking me.
Now, everything's growing
Blurry and dark.
All I feel is a searing pain
All over my body
You left though.
To save yourself.
You let her attack me.
I can't stay awake
Any longer.
Why are the lights so bright?
I only closed my eyes for a minute
They claim I'm in the hospital
They think I tried to **** myself
I told them about you
And the girl
But they don't believe me
Instead, they sent me away.
To a white rubber room
I have a special jacket
It lets me hug myself
They claim I'm insane.
Beyond repair.
They say you aren't real
Nor, is the girl.
They say I have
Schizophrenia
But, you can prove them wrong.
Just introduce yourself.
I've tried to introduce you.
But, they all look at me,
With pity covering their features.
Please, just say hello.
Then, they'll know, that you're real.

The girl has a dream,
A life like dream,
She toss and turns in her sleep,
She doesn't want the world to  know,
What she has done,
What she hides
With Bracelets and Sleeves,
She tries to hide her pain,
She doesn't need her friends to see,
The monster that's hidden deep down.
The one that scares away her  friends,
The one she tries to control,
Day after day It tears her soul,
Until its to late.
She takes that silver blade to ****
that monster,
She tries to end it all.
She  ends it all in her life like dream.
But it wasn't  a dream.
It was a dream she was living in.
The monster was inside her,
She couldn't defeat,
She defeats herself instead the  beast.

Fires ablaze within my eyes,
A smile concealing all my lies,
Screaming, begging, calling out,
A final, frantic, desperate, shout.

Scarlet tears drip from each vein,
A vehement covet to end this pain,
This silver blade, stays by my side,
Because all hope inside has died.

As each day ends, and darkness draws,
The devil toys, with all my flaws,
I'm helpless, alone, a worthless mess,
A broken child, he must address.

I'm tempted when he calls my name,
A way out, an escape, an end to shame,
To make it feel a lot less real,
A deal with the Devil, in blood must I seal.

They'll say I died of suicide,
But no one knows how much they've lied,
It wasn't a rope, a blade, or pills,
That broke my soul, and gave me chills.

I died inside so long before,
To live each day, an endless chore,
Pills could not **** what was already dead,
A twisted soul, an empty head.

In darkness I wait, in silence, alone,
Rose-tinted nostalgia, all around me has grown,
I beckon the devil, with the key of self-harm,
And I open the door for him, with the blood of my arm.

She fakes a smile,
Lets a laugh slip out,
And everyone thinks shes happy.

But what they dont know is how much she hates herself,
How much of a struggle it is for her to simply get out of bed or function like a normal person,
How she wishes that she was dead every second of every day,

How she dreams of a world where someone gave a ****,
How broken and mentally unstable she is,
How alone she feels.

She's stuck in an everlasting darkness,
No matter what she does,
The light never shows itself.
If only someone would help to save her from herself.

Im tired of being depressed.
Im tired of being sad.
Im tired of being alone.
Im tired of being broken.
Im tired of being fat and ugly.
Im tired of being reminded of it.
Im tired of crying.
Im tired of panic attacks and nervous breakdowns.
Im tired of being ignored.
Im tired of being put last.
Im tired of wanting to die.
Im tired of life....

I'm tired.
Tired of faking a smile,
Tired of pretending I'm happy,
Tired of being sad,
Tired of feeling alone,
Tired of the demons messing with my head,
Tired of the demons trying to control me.

My loneliness was a rattle in the windows,
My sadness was a bottle on the bathroom floor.
You said something that I never wanted to hear,
You said you don't want me anymore.

You left,
You left just like everyone else did.
You're words were a gun.
And you left it loaded.

My entire world was flipped upside down,
My heart shattered.
You destroyed me,
You turned me into a beautiful disaster.