I'm really tired. I'm really exhausted. I'm sick of getting hurt by you time by time. I hate getting deserted by you All those fake promises All those false hope and encouragements don't mean anything to me anymore All the attempts I tried to build back the friendship. No just no. I know you would never understand me maybe because you look down on me cuz I'm suicudal. All I really need is someone to make me smile to understand me and not give up on me. Just so you know,I'm fighting this battle alone with a broken sword and shield.