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 Dec 2017 Marshall CB Hiatt
fdg
Hands a little shaky
I'll drink water and rest.
I'm not sure I deserve it
But I'm obsessed with shaky hands outlining a jaw bone.
And my hands steady as I stare off in space daydreaming alone in my car, smoking
wondering if you're going to have a moment thinking of sitting next to me somewhere by water today.
I'll float out there next time
Body light in the middle of a lake
Hands still, resting on my stomach
Swim back to shore and hands explore in the dark for my ******* mixed in with a pile of both of our clothes
 Dec 2017 Marshall CB Hiatt
fdg
Mom, i think i'm starting to like this boy
I'm afraid and ugh, ****, mom what the hell??
I didn't realize that life would be this cycle of careful steps people take, walking on shards of ******* glass
because if you're not too careful
you are going to get hurt.
I used to be so bold without question
I was fearless about feeling
today, I have never been so scared
me, to my mom, whispering:
(but i'll be bold anyway, okay? i still prefer all the fuss of butterflies with someone)
lol what a lame fukn title. I hope i like him
 Dec 2017 Marshall CB Hiatt
fdg
skin loose and hanging off each limb
i'll pull it to one side,
(try to give you the better angle)
i think its amazing that i can forget all of that,
naked under bed sheets
this boy grabbing my thighs and i only think for a split second, "i wish they were smaller," and then the thought disappears and i don't feel like i take up too much space as he kisses my stomach.
i want to give myself the credit of confidence but i think it's just comfort
and at least that is something
even if it's seemingly only there in the soft presence of a smile
 Dec 2017 Marshall CB Hiatt
fdg
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 Dec 2017 Marshall CB Hiatt
fdg
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The moon is almost full
I am still on my first cigarette and I've got all night to use my brain
Right now let me just inhale and think with my heart
Kids//current joys
 Dec 2017 Marshall CB Hiatt
fdg
I want to be the deep end of the pool when I lay down
You could dip your toes under my rib cage
I want you to be able to grab me by my collar bone
Pull me into your chest,
Let me disappear completely in there.
I am tired of my presence
I am tired
Please don't ask me
What my favorite feature
In the sculpture of you
Is
Because that's ******* nonsense.
I can't pick out one
Like the ripest berry on the bush.
You don't work that way.
I love the way it all works in harmony
The way that I know that nothing would look right on anyone else
But it looks like heaven-sent beauty on you
Your nose, your eyes, wrong on any other face
Are the face
That dreams are made of.
I don't love you for
One piece of the puzzle
I love you for the picture now that it's done
You are more than the sum of your parts
More so than any being has ever been.
You're the revelation of perspective
Of shading and shadows
In the art of my life
And I will not view a painting
In 2 inch squares,
My tongue
A sweet silvery dagger's blade
The cool flat of it slipping over you like some archaic inhuman magic
Sometimes, however, it slips
The keening edge moves into the flesh of your soul
Like so many scalpels into mastectomy patients
And you bleed in ways
I never meant you to

I understand that the ache falls deep
That it's hard to forgive those who slash you
But hear me out
Because my arms are the deftest needles
That mend the human heart
From the inside out
They can do anything you need
But only you decide
If there will be
A scar
I care about the world.  A lot.
I will always care about the world,
and I always have.
I am a hungry underdog
Starving to be a wolf.  
I care about the world.
Because it refuses to care about me.
There is a distinct form of tragedy
Within freedom
A certain breed of loneliness
That is only felt as an echo
One could sail alone with the wind
For an indefinite time
Without noticing it
And every gentle touch
Or grasp with lustful hands
Is felt as just a whisper
Without the satisfaction
Of a scream
One could endure earth shaking loads of
Pure, unadulterated thunder
And feel nothing at all
And the labyrinth is,
Is this numbness –
This unpiercable veil of anesthesia –
Is it strength,
Or weakness?
So I wrote a thing..
 Jul 2017 Marshall CB Hiatt
fdg
i thought i'd have more to write about this
but i've got nothing
this whole summer i've been nothing

if anything makes it to autumn,
please let my plants live
this sounds really dramatic but i also plan on living ****, just a disclaimer
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