Matthew S

Matthew S Dec 2017

I wish

What i wish i did
Is let my hate not blind me
That i let you in
That i let you see the imperfection i have become
That i kept you near
So that way i could deal with the pain in my heart

What i wish i did
Was let you help me
Through the hell that was my past
Let you give me love
The love that you used to give me
And tell me almost everyday

What i did
Is i hurt you
Like the people before you
Like the chick before me
The love you gave me was starting to become a chore
I know it
I pushed you to the edge

what i did
Is i complained
But i never let you in truly
I never listened to your needs
Only mine was shared
But i would never let you help
And for that i am sorry

I would say sorry one hundred times
but I've already used it a million
The meaning, now destroyed
So know this
I know i cant take it back
But i will always wish
To get you back

But that's just a fairy tale that will never come true
I know it

have you ever ****** up relationship so bad that you know you can never be with that same person again, yet that person was everything and now your like "why the frick was i so dumb?" well i have! it ***** but at some point i am going to have to move on.
just not right now.

#relationship #wish #regret

Matthew S Dec 2017

Kara come home

Blonde hair
Blue eyes
I hope your out there somewhere
I hope that each step takes you to a new adventure
And not your premature demise

Blonde hair
Blue eyes
I kinda saw this coming
I saw the sadness in your eyes but said nothing
And now your gone

Blonde hair
Blue eyes
We look for you with intensity
Like a flame fiercely burning on a candle wick
Because we cannot bear the thought of you hurt

Blonde hair
Blue eyes
We staple your posters
Flash your name every step we take
In order to see you again

Blonde hair
Blue eyes
We message you
Hoping and praying that
You will just come back home

Blonde hair
Blue eyes
We hope to see you happy again
To see you safe
So we tell everyone

"Short blonde hair
Crystal blue eyes
5 feet and 4 inches
Medium build
In a grey sweater"

Kara please come home

my friend ran away Friday afternoon and i just.... Kara if your somehow reading this, please come home. everyone is searching and we just want you safe

#runaway #home #kara #people

Matthew S Dec 2017

Ignorance is bliss

To make a mistake online
Is to be corrected
The only way to be corrected is to be put on blast-
Called an idiot-
Called a ******-
A *******-
A *******-
And to be publicly ridiculed while you cry yourself to sleep because
You actually spoke out for once
Only for someone to confirm what you already believe inside.

To see a mistake
Is for you to instantly correct it in the rudest way possible
Call them a *****-
A *******-
Tell them no one will love them-
To **** themselves-
Because you simply don't know

You don't know that his uncle just died-
And that he never got to tell em goodbye.
You don't know that they had to take care of a grieving aunt-
The uncle's sister-
All day because she has lost all but one of her brothers.
You don't know that he constantly cries himself to sleep-
Because he is so full of anxiety he can't even post a comment on a website without being judged-
And you just proved him right
You don't know.
Repeat it after me-
You
Don't
Know

So be rude
Call them names-
Question the intelligence of strangers because of a spelling mistake-
I'm sure he will be fine
That he will be alive tomorrow
After all
Ignorance is bliss

just a warning. there is a bit of profanity in this poem.

#ignorance #internet #sad

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