Wasn’t it a love song
When you told me, you cared for me
on a hill top alongside all your dark history
You’d fall for me
inside of a capsule of your haunting thoughts,
You were battling
Run with your demons, paint a mask
As they befriended me

Wasn’t in a love song
When we roamed In fires, you made love to me
Cast the net, but you were always there to release
You cared for the moon, but I’m a sun that couldn’t see
Burning fingers, you buried the ashes underneath
Filling me with doubt, you weren’t there for me

Cause you didn’t love me, you couldn’t love me

But wasn’t it a love song
When I cried for you to love me
I walked on paths, I wouldn’t cross if you hadn’t guided me
And all of those cracks in the walls i was painting
Stood outside your heart, even when it was raining

Wasn’t it a love song
When you ran away from me
With the pack of wolfs, you were always howling
After your pray, you would slay you would find me,
So if you’re speaking honestly
That on the full moons, I’m still the sun you would see

But you didn’t love me, You couldn’t love me

But isn’t this a love song?

You were my morning coffee.
With each sip, you became my perfect drip
I became alive-
But never learning
I wouldn’t notice my tongue burning
Neglecting how many grounds I began to waste
Now noticing each day there was a different taste.
Bold. Enriching my mind.
Memories becoming to thick, getting lost in the grind
Fulfilling. Holding you to warm the parts of me that weren’t awake.
Bitter. Starting days with dissatisfaction, never taking a second to reckon my intake of my reaction
Strong. Conquering moments that were holding me back
Forgetting the tendencies I seemed to lack
Perfect. There was nothing else I needed to sustain my days
Routined in my ways
I became addicted
Better then anything that could be predicted
You made the days seem easier, and I felt more aware. Like without you I wouldn’t be all there.
I never thought that you would ever run out after this long -that I would need to take my time having you.
I was wrong.
Unfulfilled. I started burning from the inside out
I could never control the amount
Raw. From each time my lips were burning
Weak. Throughout time I forgot how to make you strong
I just stopped learning.
Cold. From each time that I had left you sitting out-
You couldn’t handle the amount of time waiting for me to wake up and need you.
You were my morning coffee.

Leaning over to smell the roses
To only inhale the smoke of a burning garden
Plucked prematurely
To find roots that never found a bed to grow
Planting unused hope and fear to fill the ***
Rotting roots left to dry inside a hallow home
Finding perfect days behind foggy windows
Mistaking dust for gray clouds
Slowly drowning in unfamiliar places
Thinking sunshine’s only purpose is to burn ones soul
Weeds hovering over brittle shoulders
Hiding eager petals that can never bloom
Searching for a family tree
To only be stuck inhaling polluted air
In a home that only rains

Make a wish before my flame goes out
Follow me into the night to capture my perfume
While you inhale me in between breaths
Hold me close before morning arrives
See everything with your hands, the sun can’t show you
Wrap me around your lips, to feel me when you smile
Dig as deep as you can, before you kiss me goodbye
Open your eyes
Reach your hand over to find a memory you’ll soon forget

The sun dances around you
To merely show you the shadow
Of all the darkness left inside you.
And she reveals that she can still bring warmth
To even the cruelest of creatures

You struck me with your wars
As you’re screaming bullets through my eyes
My tears waving white flags
But in our home all we could find were casualties
I’m looking through your eyes,
finding only graveyards of everything we hoped we would’ve found by now
Creeping through the gallows of your mouth
I find solace now, only in the shadows of things that used to be
Words shooting through the belt, finding their way lower with every breath
My insides became raw from all the sleepless nights of the fireworks mimicking our voices
Igniting fires in my heart to try to keep you warm
I buried myself in your graveyard
And called it love
Dirt filling my lungs, but I still took it all in
Reaching my hand higher to push above ground
I try to feel the warmth of a sun, that I know will never be mine
To never see a single sunrise
But you made sure to tell me about the colors I could’ve seen
Tempting me with the idea of a sunset filled sky
Steeping my body in soil to never know it’s roots
I begin to slowly hold your poems on my tongue
Waiting to whisper them back to you so you would know how it feels
Pebble by pebble I dig myself out
Bursting above ground to finally breathe to only find a night sky covered by clouds
But I blew my poems of my own
And suddenly the colors bloomed inside me
Finding I didn’t need you to show me a sunset
But that I could awaken it in myself

I tried to remember this feeling
Of staring in your sun
I’m peeling
Reeling, from how you were my perfect faith
Closing other doors that were never built
Out of the guilt, of loosing you
Until your shoulders started to tilt
And spilt into mine
Handing me promises you built, but couldn’t keep
Either in nightmare or sleep
I grasp to what’s there- holding onto a glass that’s shattered
Cause even if you’re broken glass, you mattered.
Watching how you grew your horns
Picking off the petals and leaving the thorns
Wishing each time it rained it didn’t have to pour
But was this before, or after
You forged your signature on this disaster
Thinking you were only filled with laughter
My darling- you kept trying to eat my spark
Glowing mouths, but I’m stuck in the dark
Left with the mark of every time you would tell yourself you were no longer mine
Waiting for the perfect glass of wine
Screaming in silence, I would never forget
How time after time-
I would drown in your liquid regret
Letting go of your glass that is shattered
Wishing I would look back, and think that you mattered

I look at you and think of all that I’ve missed, each kiss, has it really come to this
Sitting here waiting, I’m shaking, from all the shards of my heart that keep breaking
Trying to put it back together with strings, it stings, when I want to run to you, and tell you, **** it.. I love you

My past, a time in space that didn’t last, stars fizzling out, because all they really are, is gas, but this light he has, **** near took my breath too the masses, when I sit and count each moment that passes for a post to only see, how lovely you’re getting without me, when I want to run closer to you, and tell you **** it..I love you.

You leaving didn’t make me love you less, but there’s always tomorrow I guess, the ultimate test, to not care about you as much as the rest
Trying to chase a flame without a spark, I seem to only find love with you In the dark
Feeling you closer for me to tell you, **** it...I love you

The composer in my mind never unwinds, because it loves to find the reasons why you were perfect in my timeline, hoping you’d think “if I came back to her, I could take her with me, because she’s always been mine”, and waiting for the tomorrow where you didn’t push me away, you come to say that this time you’ll stay, because **** it, You love me, in the same way

You invited me in
Gave me a key that would only bring me to a hallway of doors
Waiting for secret passwords
to only find more useless keys inside
Our love floating endlessly
A rootless tree trying to grow in cement and brick walls
Smashing the glass to only find bars wrapped around your heart
Feeling like I’m screaming over a voice that’s already silent
My hand reached out
But froze from your breath
Pulling teeth to only find our loves cavities
But maybe if we moan loud enough,
we won’t hear our obvious doubts


You invited me
Gave me a key to a broken lock
You never could let me fully in, but I never could knock
Secret codes, I couldn’t find the way
Finding rooms that aren’t yours, what can I say
I never truly wanted my toes to get this wet
But we’re swimming in a mile of liquid, regret
Doors with no keys, lights went out in the halls
A rootless tree trying to grow in broken brick walls
Smashing glass to find bars around your heart
Screaming over a silent voice, you knew you had this part
Pulling teeth, but I’m left wishing
maybe if we Moan loud, we won’t hear the heart missing

You’re the sun on my skin
Crawling through my hairs, letting me feel the heat.
Lighting me up, until I spill a sunset
Pouring over all the skies.
I begin to transcend into night
Capturing stars in my eyes.
Waiting until tomorrow,
To feel you burn again