Everyday is the same
Surrounded by people I hate
Doing things I don't like
I can't seem to change this path
The addictive lifestyle of a worthless character
Jeers for my peers
A sense of disdain has become clear
I swallow my shame
I curse my name
Self loathe is my best friend
Sometimes I wish tonight would be the end

I'm looking for an escape
Something to take me away
To fulfill my purpose
I follow the light
Only to find darkness
This feeling I'll never surpass
Will consume me
I want to keep the dreams alive
But I know I'll never be enough

I feel a sense of emptiness
The kind that won't go away
The kind that'll eat you alive
The type that'll **** your drive
A feeling of ineptitude
That'll I'll never be able to shake

Friend or enemy
Your two faced side has shown
No longer trusted
You're out
And so are your games
You've been a fake for too long
Finally discovered
Thrown under
Left for the leaches
Degenerate piece of ****
Get in your hole and bury yourself

I go through the days
Thinking about what makes me happy
But I sometimes realize
I don't want happiness
I don't desire assured satisfaction
I wish to feel human
To feel desolate
To feel my pain
To feel true life
A foundation of depression
A sense of isolation
To comfort my shell
Of what I used to be

I'm not what I seem to be
I'm a monster waiting to be unleashed
I wish to be the best for you
But something inside me gets the best
I want to appreciate you
And express my love
But I can't evade what's held over my head
I can't forget I can't forget I CANNOT forget
But I still desire you
I will still give you clues
That I am what you need
And even though
You nor I believe it
I will show you
What it can be
To find true love
And never expect it