Is it possible to feel something so much that you feel nothing?
I'm confused,  really confused.
Or overwhelmed by all this
by the last few days
and what made sense now doesn't
and what doesn't make sence now doesn't
I'm confused,  really confused.
I don't know what to do
I don't know what to say
when people ask what's wrong
because I don't know if it's real.
It doesn't seem real.
it did when I was crying
before it happened
but I didn't see it
so am struggling to believe it
to realise that you're gone.

I'm crying
then I'm not
I'm smiling
then crying
then nothing
I can't feel anything
my head is blank
my face is blank
my eyes are lost
then my eyes are filling
with tears
then I'm ok
then I'm smiling
then nothing
then crying

What Is this?
I didn't even say goodbye
I never wanted you to leave
I never wanted to let go
but you'll live on in memor**y

Has anyone ever thought 'what would I do if this person dies?'
then they do.











and you don't remember what you thought.

I couldn't say it...