Ever since I started highschool music was and is my lifeline

It's what helped me get though it and manage life but with out Her music

I wouldn't be able to write poetry or even share it with people in my life

I didn't start writing poetry about my mental health until late one night

That almost fateful night that was until I couldn't get myself to almost be Hum Hallelujah

That night I was sitting on the floor listening to music

Then decided to listen to Her album Patient 139 and Her song Westwood on repeat

That's when I realized that I have can't give up on life now and not have a future

The one that saved my life is Tess Stevens and the song was Westwood

Some people think the kids are alright and never question it

Other think which is true is that the kids aren't alright

What people don't know is that I'm one of those kids that aren't alright

Fight and screaming with the inter demons more times than need be

Wishing I could get myself to quit saying I'm fine when I'm not

Finally talking about my mental health but in poetry

After finding and listening to Tess Stevens and her music

Now i'm learning to be okay with the fact that i'm one of the kids aren't alright

Which most people can't see me saying that one of them at all

The one who's Patient 139

A killjoy that's been to hell and back

Not afraid to keep on living

Not afraid walk this world alone

The one who's a drag king that slays

Who's the song I'm Not Okay (I Promise)

The one who considers singers, band members, and youtubers friends

That if I was on the show Escape The Night would be "The Poet"

Who to some degree understands Edgar Allan Poe's poems

And so that is who I am

I found them cause of music or YouTube

Some of them I knew who they were

But didn't care about them when I was younger

They're the ones who I say "Top Of The Morning To Ya Laddies" or "Where's The Black Smith" with

Or instead sing Oh Miss Believer or Thnks Fr Th Mmrs with

Most of them I consider my best friends

Some of them are Patrick, Pete, Joe, and Andy

Others are Jimmy, Chris, Chandler, and Karl

They're there for me when any actual people aren't

They're the ones who don't care about the fact that I'm LGBTQ+

They just see me as another human being that's a fan of their music or channel

I try to remind myself about the Fall Out Boy lyric "You Are What You Love Not Who Loves You"

And tell myself that I'll be like Frank Iero and JackSepticEye

Some of them are the reason why I'm going to be a youtuber

I ask myself all the time how in the world did they somehow wind up being someone I consider friends

Wishing that I wasn't Patient 139

The one screaming the lyrics to I'm Not Okay

Sometimes hopes that someone understands me

Relating to Tess Stevens and her song Tourist

Crying to Good Riddance (Time Of Your Life)

Wondering if anyone has the time to listen to me whine

Trying to not do what Pete Wentz almost did in Hum Hallelujah

Thinking I'd just like to be only me and not also someone else every day

Asking myself why music is my novacane

Just wanting to know why most people don't care about me anymore

It's like every time I listen to music or watch YouTube I feel numb and I have gotten used to it

When it comes to my mental age I feel like the Clock Forgot It's Hands

In the end I'm the one who walks a lonely road the only one I have ever known

Now come one, come all to this tragic affair

That is My Chemical Romance

Who taught me to raise my voice every time they try and shut me up

They’re the ones that’s there for me through thick and thin

The ones that are killjoys out in the zones

That went to The Black Parade and said “we’ll carry on”

The ones that I named myself after

The ones that gave me courage to say “I am not afraid to keep on living” “I am not to walk this world alone”

The ones who I feel like understand me when they say “I’m Not Okay”

The ones who told me to “Give ‘Em Hell” and  “Hang ‘Em High”

The ones who inspired the Sheriff Of Emo Town Tess Stevens to write the album Patient 139

The ones who if I was a killjoy would think “The Only Hope For Me Is You”

The ones whose lead singer proved that he loves and supports all of the fans regardless

The ones who told me to “Look Alive Sunshine ”

The ones who inspire me to write this poem about them

The ones who said “so long and goodnight”

So that is what My Chemical Romance is to me