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Aug 2018 FredErick le Roux

silentwoods

Dear younger me, where have you gone?
It saddens me to think it’s been so long.

I miss your smile, the way your eyes lit up.
The happiness that overfilled your cup.

You were carefree, your heart untouched by sorrow.
At peace with yesterday, today, tomorrow.

When did it start? the whispers made of lead;
The lies that swarmed like flies inside your head.

They told you what you were wasn’t enough.
They touched your creamy soft skin and made it tough.

You clung to every whisper, every lie.
Believed you weren’t enough, with just one try.

I’m sorry for not sticking up for you.
For not reminding you of what was true.

Instead, I hurt you more, destroyed your pride.
Made you forget the girl you were inside.

I pity you, your heart was so naïve.
I’m sorry for what I made you believe.

I didn’t mean to speak to you so rough.
I’m sorry for not loving you enough.

Try to remember who you were, for me.
Before the world told you who you should be.

Aug 2018 FredErick le Roux

Best Friend Forever

Aug 2018 FredErick le Roux

silentwoods

Best Friend Forever

Let’s go way back
To a simpler time.
To our very first chapter:
The summer we were nine.

You were too cool,
And I was too shy.
You didn’t really like me,
Sometimes you made me cry.

It didn’t take long
To outgrow that phase.
We developed a bond
In what seemed like two days.

From hiking adventures
To countless sleepovers,
We conquered the world
And saved snapping turtles.

When times became tough,
You knew just what to say.
My pain was your pain,
You made things okay.

You knew my whole heart;
All the grief, all the joys.
We shared endless phone calls
and complained about boys.

Fast forward to now:
We’re on year twenty-two.
Some things may have changed
But our friendship stayed true.

We’re secure on our own
But we’re stronger together.
I thank God for you,
You’re my best friend forever.

#bestfriend #goingstrong

Aug 2018 FredErick le Roux

Life Partner -1 and 2

Aug 2018 FredErick le Roux

Sparkle in Wisdom

Life Partner -1 and 2

I am getting dragged
behind you
Just like a rope
Lifeless, hopeless.

The diversion you take,
Me too turn behind,
Dumb, subconscious..
Identityless.

Your destination is in your thoughts,
I just walk behind you,
You walk to achieve something,
I walk behind questioneless..

Or

Is not my destination
my determination..YOU?

Do you realize
I walk behind you?
Can you hear my footsteps..
Dragging with a hush??

But
Why am I
Asking you all this?
Was walking behind you not my own decision?

You are moving for your own resting place,
I was anyways never the whole final destination for you...
Then why should my ubiety in your 'moving life' should have any mention??

I have made you my destiny by choice,
Then
Should my life have any other diversion than yours..??

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Life partner - 2 (Reply)

I could feel you getting dragged behind me,
Your presence completes my existence,
You are walking behind with held breaths,
I move ahead counting your breaths..

I am moving with a great speed,
To wait and rest for few seconds is impossible..
I could hear your heavy weezing,
But to slow down is impossible..

You speak the truth,
You walk behind making me your destiny,
And so I walk on the good road till today,
Thorns will come surely in my path in future,
But I am trying to take bit longer but smooth roads..

Neither animosity nor complains you have for me,
Neither questions nor answers I have for you,
Our life will pass harmoniously this way..
Me ahead and you behind tagging along.

Hold me well with power of your determination,
Give me courage by your silent smiles,
Keep your faith on me always,
You will be given credit for my journey of success,
Hold me strongly on the ground after the success..!!

Sparkle In Wisdom
11/8/2018

#Saw today a loaded truck at traffic light secured with a rope,a portion of the rope has gotten loose and was dragging behind it...

It can be hypothetical talk between truck and rope
Or
A situation where a wife follows a husband,
Or a devoted girl friend Madly in love will tag along her love...
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English translation of my Hindi poem.
Jeevansathi hindi - 1 and 2

Aug 2018 FredErick le Roux

To my Phantom of Delight

Aug 2018 FredErick le Roux

Ajit Saigal

To my Phantom of Delight

I want to hold my head up high
I want to fly till I touch the sky
I want to make my angel smile.

Days will be hard and nights cooler
Life won’t draw your card any more
The storm outside would rage on & on
Yet your music would raise me strong.

The wounds keep bleeding
The tears keep falling
I may not matter any longer
But I promise to not let them monger.

Nothing can glimmer your dazzling light
Believe me, you can scale pristine heights
You are the brightest star ever
Just let it shine sharp and clear.

Keep smiling
Remain happy
Brighten up my Angel of Joy
You will always be my Phantom of Delight.

This was written for my little daughter whom I hadn't met for 6 long years.
My last memory of her flashed & paused,
at me kissing her tiny forehead,
she was just 1 month old then, sleeping peacefully on her mom's lap,
cuddled within caring silken arms.

#phantom #of #delight #angel #joy

Aug 2018 FredErick le Roux

lately

Aug 2018 FredErick le Roux

Samridhi

lately

lately, I've been feeling very lonely
even when I'm surrounded by people.

lately, I've been feeling quite disconnected
to the very place I came to make connections in.

lately, I've been feeling like I don't belong
to the very place I called home.

lately, I've been feeling quite lost
despite having all the things on my checklist crossed.

lately, I've been feeling really stressed
even though I've been trying my best.

lately, I've been feeling quite incapable
of doing what I need to do, or should be doing.

and lastly, I've been feeling really sad
with the very life that gave me everything I have.

compilation of the thoughts that I've been having lately

#life #loneliness

Aug 2018 FredErick le Roux

long distance

Aug 2018 FredErick le Roux

Samridhi

long distance

hours turn into days
and days turn into weeks -
of not talking.

i'll call you later
eventually turn into "call you when I'm free"
except that, free meant never.

the key to long distance is communication, they say
but how can we communicate when we don't even talk every day?

i refuse to give up on us
i refuse to believe we are done
but to you it seems I have become someone
less of a person and more of a fuss.

I'm trying to figure how I'm feeling about my relationship. Long distance is not easy and I thought we could work it out. But I'm afraid it is hurting us both more than anything.