It's 4:44 AM & my eyes are closed
But I'm wide awake dreaming
Of the smell of his clothes
Blanketed in the faint scent
Of him, from this afternoon
His presence lingering in my bed
From every day that we spent
Together entangled in our love for each other
Smiling between every kiss
& deeply forgetting all the world
Falling in love over & over
I lie awake tonight wishing my body was
Entangled elegantly in his
Although not tonight, someday it will be
So we must have faith in this love
You & me,
Because someday will come
& forever we will be

life is a freefall
we're all falling
from the start
for love
for lies
for something to believe in
we fall forever
until someone catches us
but the fall doesn't stop
we just...
fall together
but sometimes
their arms get tired
they let go
we continue to fall
& they fall too
but no longer is it for one another
it's for one other
person to believe in
we aren't searching
we're falling for someone
who's worth the catch
in a split second they're there
in our arms
& in a familiar second they can be
just gone
but we don't stop falling
& our arms don't truly tire
they're always ready to catch someone new
even if we aren't
& we're always ready to wrap our arms
around a someone new
& even if we yet don't know it
life is a freefall
but the key is
to remember
we're not alone
we're all falling
a freefall
searching for something true

i still remember
march thirteenth
the day we went on
our very first date
& i still remember
the outfit i wore
on that same tuesday
you bought me ice cream
i still remember
the first time we kissed
it was a tuesday
how could i forget?
& i still remember
that march sunset
the way that you paused
then finally leaned in
i still remember
the things that you said
that rainy afternoon
on a tuesday i regret
& i still remember
how your voice cracked
when you said goodbye
& kissed me one last time

adieu mon amour
please don't forget
while you're away
all the nights
& all the days
that we spent
together, please
do not let slip
the memory of me
for as you're not here
every day
i will think of you
& wish you had stayed

good-bye,
farewell,
such kind words
but bittersweet
easily spoken
yet less easy
to
     let
           go

(i love you)

I thought I saw a ghost,
Perhaps it was just
A worn memory of you,
Akin to your favoured pair
Of tattered blue jeans,
Likewise worn
That old, deep blue couch
We once broke in,
Now nowhere to be
Found, much like
Your heart,
Conceivably occupied
By a new individual,
Or possibly left
Alongside the road
Waiting for a new embrace,
Her smile likely dimmer
Than the girl who sat,
Once beside you on that couch
In a warm grasp that has died,
Along with the feelings
We once shared
Sat upon that couch.

Half awake
I lie in bed, searching
For your smell
Among the covers,
Desperately chasing
A memory of you
From when we had been
Lovers.