God, look at you
Veins bluer than blue
With a surface more delicate than I ever knew
Straight from the stem your lovely buds grew
How could this world hold a beauty so true?

I miss the black hair that you hid under a wool cap,
Or the smoke that left your mouth
and replaced your words.
I miss your silences,
And the gaps I had to fill,
And the hour train ride I took,
Just so there’d be time to ****.

On my way to see you,
filling my body with wine,
and little yellow candies,
I miss the fact that you’d never say anything.

I've got demons crawling in my nervous system.
Come,
give each of them a kiss.
"I don't belong to you," I scream
as you place your collar on my neck.
Owned.
Marked.
Troubled I am,
as I fall under the spell of dark eyes.
Pulsating heartbeats quiver distantly.
Distance.
That is not what I want out of this.
I want to be yours.
Demons are in my heartbeats,
come pierce them each with a lullaby.

It scares me to think that one day you'll forget my number.
You won't remember how I grew out my nails just because you loved your back being scratched.
That one day I'll try to find you,
and you won't know the color of my eyes.
I won't be the girl you tell your kids about whenever they need love advice.
But at least I'll always keep the memory of who we were together.
And my heart will never be far away from you,
my love.

i really wanted you to be the one
i ****** my life up with.
whenever his eyes found mine,
it really made me sick.
it was like i could hear you through his voice.
and whenever he blew out his smoke,
i could smell your hair.

Gravity tried so very hard to force us together,
but I just couldn't keep my grasp on you.