A small smile
plays a beautiful chord
on your angelic face.

Soft music falls
from your heavenly mouth
as our lips find each other.

I want to play the notes
on your cold heart,
and dust off your feelings.

Maybe I'll find a living soul
underneath the rusted keys
of your figure.

A secret embrace
can be shared with
the music in your step.

It's the times like right now that leave me wanting more.
I know you're leaving,
- so I cling onto the thought that you don't even exist.

Maybe I made you up,
just as I did with her.
You're nothing to me.

She slept all day
as the wind rolled throughout her brittle bones.
An ache began in her stomach,
and traveled to her toes.

What if the curse was real,
and everything was ruined?
For the sake of him,
she'd be okay.

Loving you is like trying to explain
dark burgundy of the wine you drink
to the blind.

Letting go of you was just as
easy as realizing my life
was ending from my own self termination.

With hands full of barbed wire,
I squeezed as hard as I could manage.
If anything,
I'd bleed to death.

A fate,
I could live with,
so undeniably horrid.

"NO,"
is stained onto my skin forever.
Pulsating blood
leaks onto
secret pages.
Tears fall
slowly onto
a new shoulder.
Different hands are held into
each sunrise,
and the heart turns colder
after each new beat is
shown to her.
Bodies are being displayed to
blind eyes and
deaf ears.
New words
are brought to her had
with each breath she draws.

they handed me a bag,
and told me to have a nice day.
i reached in to find
90 iron pills
84 birth control pills
and 56 major depression pills.

my mom used to tell me everything would be okay,
but i'm starting to believe that that's not true.

my clock reads 6:25,
and i still haven't left my bed.
frozen hands
can only reach so far,
whenever the world spins too fast.

It's 7:14.
Seven plus seven is fourteen.
Why do I notice the little things like this?

They drive me insane,
but I'm constantly finding them.
You used to do the same thing.

He's scratching his head,
and all I can think about is feeling
his nails raking through my own hair.

Or his hands gliding all over my warm back.
****.

I can hear  her yelling out to me. She's inviting me to come closer, to fall into her trap. She's got the eyes of the devil, and the lips of an angel.
She tries to find ways to entrap my body; to really get under my skin. Her hair falls in brown curls down her spiny back. Her bony hands reach up to hold my own, and I'm stuck.
I'm stuck between two worlds. I can't find out what is reality and what is made up. My mind is set on the girl in my mirror. Her red lips gnawing my neck. Her fragile legs around my waist.
She's screaming my name. Mine! She's pulling my own curly, brown mane. She's locking those beautiful lips onto me own.
I blink, and she's off of me. I look at my mirror, hoping she's staring back at me. All I can see is her from behind. She's turned her back on me, and I'm desperate to know why. I reach my hand out to her, but all I can feel is solid glass.
She turns, a smile tugging on her lips, and vanishes.

His tiny hands
reached up to touch
the his new mother,
and she cooed
at him with
a love that no one
could ever take away.

Tomorrow,
I'll put my feet in the water.
I don't think it'll be all that great,
however,
because you will be far away from me.

slender fingers
point animatedly
at a pale face.
"you,"
he says,
"you are beautiful."

electricity pulsed
throughout me,
and a beautiful memory
was etched forever.

Although you can't see,
you can hear .
I know you're listening to me.
My words are spilling out so very fast.

I gave you all I had,
and you gave me away.
I know you're listening to me.
I know you're there.

I have no inspiration;
maybe I could blame that on you.
You gave me up.
I know you're listening to me.

I know you're listening to me.
You gave me away.
You can't see.
I know you're listening to me.

you could break me into fragments
of flesh and bones,
but i will always be under your compulsion.
you could rip my throat out
with your sharp teeth and vicious words,
and i'd still answer to your calls.

whenever you sent me away,
i thought i had lost you forever,
and my fingers couldn't stay still.
i wanted you back.
i needed the feeling of euphoria you have me.

i searched so long for the human i have given everything to.
it took me several months to realise that you're not anything to believe in.

you're a dark soul with a bitter twist
behind ever, "i love you."
you're the shadows that haunt my figure
whenever the sun shines.
and worst of all,
you are the one thing that even brought the sun out for me.

I want him to love me
like I love him,
because I love him
so very ******* much.
It hurts not be loved
by someone you love.

Oh God, it hurts so much.

I ALWAYS WANTED TO BE EVERYTHING YOU
WANTED ME TO BE,
BUT I REALIZED THAT EVERYTHING YOU
WANTED WASN'T EVEN ON EARTH.
YOU ONLY WANTED THINGS THAT
WERE ON GALAXIES TOO FAR AWAY TO
EVEN SEE.
WHENEVER I FINALLY CAME
TO THIS CONCLUSION,
YOU WERE MILES AWAY FROM ME.
OH,
I WANTED YOU
BACK SO VERY
VERY BADLY
BABE.

Your hands tried to undo the buttons on my plaid blouse,
and I couldn't help but sob.
I told you that I felt *****;
you shushed me,
and you held me close.

I puff out the poison,
and I inhale the smoke.

I think I am screaming,
yet let out a croak.

I watched as her words came out in the slowest motion;
lips made of cherries.
I knew right then that I wanted to cherish her flavor.

an old man looks up at me with a toothless grin,
and a sparkle in his eyes.
i watch as his feeble hands
reach up to the sky
in hopes of becoming youthful once again.

a teacher passes by me in the hall,
and she looks me over as if i'm nothing.
little does she know that i sit in her class everyday,
thinking of how much she inspires me.

the lights flicker on and off in my head
almost as much as in this classroom.
the girl beside me won't ******* quit clicking her tongue,
and restlessly flirting with the boy in front.
i'm going mad in here.

the girl with long hair is reading nonstop.
she's never been in love before.
i always get the update of the *****
she gave out the day before.
it's calming to know some girls are insane.

I've got demons crawling in my nervous system.
Come,
give each of them a kiss.
"I don't belong to you," I scream
as you place your collar on my neck.
Owned.
Marked.
Troubled I am,
as I fall under the spell of dark eyes.
Pulsating heartbeats quiver distantly.
Distance.
That is not what I want out of this.
I want to be yours.
Demons are in my heartbeats,
come pierce them each with a lullaby.

He makes the shallow cut on the cheek of yet another victim;
hope has been lost for another criminal
that roams the streets freely.

hot breath spilled over my bare neck,
and all i could smell was Jack Daniels.
clammy hands made their way onto my petite body,
but i couldn't feel any of it.
someone else was on my mind.

you were a faded dream,
a hopeless sigh.
you're the voice i had lost,
and the tear that fell.

i could think of you forever,
but eternity can't last.
infinity is a thought,
that i couldn't think.

i can still remember
your soothing hands
lying on my chest.
not trying to touch me,
but to pry apart my rib cage
in hopes to enter my heart chambers.

a chair with 5 legs
beckons out to me,
and i wonder if you've ever
sat upon it.

a table with 4 legs
screams my name,
and i wonder if your back
has ever arched on it.

then i remember..
i'm in a doctors' office,
and you weren't
into public display of affection.

i tried to get high
to forget everything
you ever told me.
i noticed that
you were far more
addictive than any
drug i had ever taken.

I want nothing more
than to be held in your ropes,
and bound to your bed.
I seek a future
full of nothing
but your embrace.
You're a ***** escape,
and I welcome you in
whenever you need to be free.

you wrapped your jacket
around my bare shoulders,
and you told me
i didn't deserve to be cold.

if i didn't deserve to be cold,
then neither did you.
i wrapped my jacket clad arms
around yours.

a fire

erupted from

your heart,

and it

burnt me.

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i really wanted you to be the one
i ****** my life up with.
whenever his eyes found mine,
it really made me sick.
it was like i could hear you through his voice.
and whenever he blew out his smoke,
i could smell your hair.

It scares me to think that one day you'll forget my number.
You won't remember how I grew out my nails just because you loved your back being scratched.
That one day I'll try to find you,
and you won't know the color of my eyes.
I won't be the girl you tell your kids about whenever they need love advice.
But at least I'll always keep the memory of who we were together.
And my heart will never be far away from you,
my love.

Her face is strong,
but her hands are giving way.
She refuses to cry towards me.

the thing that i miss the most,
is the moment
that never even happened.

I'm a passenger
to a train full of remorse.

I've bruised my ******* knuckles in hopes
that you'd bring me a band-aid.
I should have known all you'd do is bring the salt.

If you ever want to talk,
look at the bruises on my knees.
Become fond of the hair that
lands on my right shoulder.
You should probably find out
how much I love the scent of melons,
and the way I don't make a sound whenever I laugh.

If you don't know about my past,
I don't think I'm ready for you to be in my future.

intoxication
can be a deathly excuse
to the girl with sad eyes.

getting high
can be the last straw
to the girl with long legs

also,
trading your secrets
with someone else
can ****
me.

I can remember the way the sunlight bounced off of you hands.
I wanted to believe you controlled the world.
You were my God.

I hope you're having a good day. I am. I'm going to take a nap.**

How many times do I have to beg you to talk to me.
To show an ounce of something
that could be taken
as affection.

We are two separate puzzles,
with completely different pieces.
But it's almost as if
all the colours are the exact same.
So I play my pieces on yours,
and find a way to become beautiful
once again.

We were loose at the corners,
but we held on for dear life,
and we melted into something new altogether.
I've stopped waiting to be rescued,
and I'm letting you,
instead,
kidnap me.
You tell me, "okay."
And I've learned that maybe your okay will be our forever.

So I shut my mouth,
and rest my head in the crook of your shoulder.
I love you.

You told me that you'd feel guilt
- but I can feel your words against my skin right now.
I can feel absolutely everything you've ever promised me,
being ripped out of my smile.

A blank piece of paper
looked me sinfully in the eyes.
Stains smeared
across the white sheet.
Worthless it was,
just like everything else
I happened upon.

our bodies didn't know
how to move in a
similar rhythm together.
instead,
our hearts would beat
at the same exact time,
and that made me
realize that you
were the one.

he held the brown pipe up to my lips;
he told me my parents would never find out.
but he took me home too early,
and i tripped going up my front porch.

"I love you so much,
and I'd rather die with you
then without you."

"you're like an earthquake
making cracks in the earths crust,
and i'm in the aftershock"

and i cried.

i'm trying to lose sleep over you.
i'm trying to touch you in my dreams.

- sweet memory,
float to me.

I guess I could've
stopped the end of the world -
left in rotting and
tumbling into cheeto dust,
licking the residue off my fingers.

but I didn't want to
I flicked my tongue and
pieced the shapes back together,
destroying my own form
in the process

it was worth it
because I knew that
the butterflies would fly again,
you see