Erin Brown

Erin Brown May 2017

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I will never graduate.
I will never be able to have a family.
I won't get my first kiss.
I won't loose my virginity.
I won't be able to live on my own,
Or even get my first pay check.
I won't go to college.
I will never fall in love.
I would never get married,
Or have kids for that matter.
The last food I will ever have is cereal.
The last day I would see my family.
The last time I had a laugh.
All because of you.
Your stupid games and the scares you bring on our community.
You think you won't get caught.
You think that this time it will be different.
Others are joking, spreading rumors to help you get noticed.
You think this is funny don't you?
It won't be soon when you get locked up.

-You never know what they are thinking-

Erin Brown May 2017

Social Media.

You post these comments so people will feel sorry for you.
These people that see what is happening to you scares them.
I know you are hurting but this is not the way to express how you feel.
Get help.
Don't sit around and get even more hurt and stressed than what you already are.
I know life may **** right now, but it is not the end of the world.
Your life is still ahead of you.
Why give up now when God created you for a reason?
These people that see you as weak think that you are crazy.
Do you want that label?
I may not know what you're going through, but at least I can try.
Tell me what is wrong and I will help.
Others that see your post won't care.
Talk to people that want to help.
When you find those people, don't let go of them.

-Don't be afraid to ask for help-

Erin Brown May 2017

Gossip Girl.

You say you love her but then you talk behind her back?
I wonder why you still talk to her if you promised to stay away.
You were supposed to do this for me, but I guess you wouldn't understand.
But I thought you would since you have been through this trouble before.
I guess all you do is repeat what you have been taught.
I know you cheat to this game we play.
It is me against you but I never have a say.
You laugh, talk gossip and drink all night long.
"You promised me" I said, but it comes out so wrong.
I know we make mistakes but you continue to repeat them.
You say I am a brat but all you do is talk **** behind our backs.
I wish I knew what to say to you,
But it is hard for me cause I haven't got a clue.

#i #know #what #you #are #going #through

Erin Brown Apr 2017

That Day.

You have fed me lies my whole life.
I keep my emotions bottled up so you think I am okay.
I'm not.
I forgave you for what you did.
But that still does not mean I have forgotten.
Sketched in my brain like a map.
Untouched since that day.
I try and stay positive.
Being that happy go lucky kind of gal you "always" knew.
My friends do not know our secret.
That I have kept bottled up like a rocket ship.
Around you is when I remember, the hateful words you spat in my face.
So tell me one more time.
Do you love me?
Cause it sure as hell didn't seem like it.

-Sorry to burst your bubble sweetheart-

#forgiven

Erin Brown Apr 2017

Meant to be.

I thought you were cute, and you thought the same.
Thinking that I would never get the chance to talk to you because I was too afraid.
Then one day, you decide to finally speak up.
Figuring out that you were not the guy I thought you were made me feel sad.
Wondering that if I was different, then maybe things could work out.
I knew from the beginning this was wrong.
We live in two different worlds that would never collide.
You have played with the weak and pretty.
I guess I know who you really are now.
Boy oh boy, you picked the wrong girl.
Because if you actually knew me, you would know that this would never work out for the good.

Erin Brown Apr 2017

One Sip.

Red eyes,
***** mouth,
And a wickedness you cannot explain.
The touch of your harmful words have left me stunned.
I am lost.
Confused.
And without a whole.
The life I thought I once knew, now broken like an egg shell.
She said she would stop.
But who would have thought,
She did not.

— The End —