I dreamt it was the end of the world.
the purple orange sky was falling
crushing everything I came to know
and we kept dying
over and over
until we did things right

not everything you think
belongs to you
is truly yours,
sometimes
your the only one
who thinks that way

carry on.
despite how your heart is a shipwreck that sank every time.
still, carry on.

on that night where the sinew
that holds us has tethered,
i swore that you’ll always have a part of me.
no matter what foreign soil you wander,
no matter whom stranger’s mouth you tasted,
no matter whose warmth your fingertips touched—
you’ll always carry a fragment of my soul.

one word to describe you (that i hope i wont ever feel but here we are): regret

i want you to remember me as this:
beneath starry sky
still in the clouded moon
chasing city lights
against the november breeze
where your fingers twisting my hair
your lips crushing mine into wine
gasping how mine was the first you tasted
that night—
oh, that night
i never felt so young
despite feeling empty
and we held our gaze
as i whispered
we will never be here again
we will never be here again
we will never be here again
and you agreed—
til this day
i wish you lied
but you didn't
and now we stare
at each other's eyes
with withheld tongues
full of hushed secrets
as if that night never happened
as if you never once
made me feel special

where do i put all
the anger
the sadness
the frustration
all those *******
if they're about you
and yet
i cant talk to you...
not anymore

the water seemed inviting
so I plunged right through
never thought the thing that soothed me
will be my downfall too

they say remove things that are toxic in your life
give yourself a favor, take pity on yourself
but what if the thing that suffocates me
and the thing that poison my being
is the venom that my system needs
for my essence to breathe

it's sad to think that
a person that once were your sunshine
now only brought you rain
the person that you know as happiness
now only brought you pain
he opened your door and left
now you were never the same