So many decisions
Are hard to make.

From saying "yes",
or "no".

From staying you'll stay,
Or that you have to go.

I wish you said "no",
and that you didn't have to go.
Because,
Now I'll never see you again.

Your voice was intoxicating, delicious;
Now, it's unnaturally sweet and dissonant.
I loved hearing it.
I loved hearing you.

But now, I'm not sure.
Because,
Our voices together,
No longer make
What was once
The most beautiful orchestra.

I'm too scared to tell you
My feelings for you.
Because if I did,
You'd laugh.

We talked on the phone because she hated to text
Giving me a hint of what comes next
My heart used to be empty and as hard and black as coal
but she set it on fire and now it feels full
Your heart is broken while mine is whole
So let's put them together and only be half broken
So we can be the same heart but in different skin
You make my weeks eventful
Instead of my days of seven dull
We compliment each other, I push you pull
I compliment you to bring joy
You'd compliment me but you're too coy
I run for our future while you run from your past
Good thing we're fast
And not to put you on blast,
but,
let's end get out of this rut
it's monotonous
so let's make this concept official, us

I will be there until the very end.
Everything might leave you,
All your friends,
The sight you once had,
The knowledge of how things work...
But you will always have me
Loyally by your side,
Till forever ends.

You won't have to worry
About forgetting what it feels like
To be in love,
To be loved,
Cause you still will be with me by your side.

Good luck.
I'll see you on the other side.

To be frank,
I'm terrified to wits end.
I finally found someone
Worth all the trouble,
Whom I only just begun to know,
But he...
I'm fighting over him with the devil.

This monster taunts me,
Haunts my dreams,
As I shriek in terror
Of the shows he puts on,
Each and everyone
Showing me crumbling,
You gone.
Showing me what would happen,
Once true love is found and taken away.

But I fight.
It's the only thing I know how to do.
He lent me his skills,
I used mine,
And together, it evens out the odds.

Maybe I do have a chance of winning after all.
I've got my love for you in one hand,
And my fears in the other.
They show me strategies to win.

But will it be enough?

My birthday is coming up.
I don't want anything
But for you to get better
And so that the surgery succeeds.

I'd sacrifice my life for that to happen.

People tell me that what goes on the internet stays there.
Well then.
I'd like to say one thing.

If I were to unexpectedly die,
At my funeral,
I don't want people to be sad.
I want them to be happy.
Rather then mourn a death,
Just picture me traveling about somewhere,
Maybe in Shangri-la,
And instead,
Celebrate my life.
I can't stand seeing you sad,
Smile, dear.
It warms the heart.