Don't blame it on me,
it's not my fault that my love is precious,
it's not my fault that I'm different,
it's not my fault that you miss me and 'can't live without me'.
I'm sorry if I'm impossible to forget,
I'm sorry if I'm afraid,
afraid to get the wrong guy,
afraid to be hurt so bad that I don't recover.
My heart may be large,
but it can only take so much,
I'm so afraid to fall running that I rather hold my mom's hand and walk.
I've seen love in many ways and by now I know it when I see it,
my heart will be here,
loving you forever but not in love with you.
I never wanted to say this but we're not meant for each other,
I gave you a chance and I'm glad I did.
You opened my eyes to fear of love yet pleasure of it.
I listened well and took note,
my love isn't free,
I gate my heart
and only I have the key.
Love is not a feeling,
it's an ability,
a journey.
One I have yet to start,
but all those players out there
have you to thank when I refuse to give them a chance,
a chance to become my lover.
I was raised better!
loved better!
when I find him,
I'll love him
and he will become the key to my gated heart.
But until then I lock my heart.

If no one
Knew what gay was
Who'd be gay?

Leave things better than you found them.

That's the only way
to make the Eden manifest
we've too long denied
ourselves and each other.

From the time we became existent
another lost existence
the hidden reality,
the beauty behind every beast.
The pain behind every growth
and tear hidden in every smile;
they say live your life then say life's not fair,
love makes the world go round but love hurts.
After rain comes the rainbow dancing upon clear skies,
only the beautiful birds get caged
but the caged bird one day dies;
true beauty acquainted with true beauty sets a bird free.
Beyond the so call reality that we claim to see,
but what our eyes have showed us, so we believed
either smile or tear
yet face not the reality of our very being
and go beyond what we see; to face that last fear.

You hear me not
but I'm screaming in your ear.
You see me not
yet here I stand in front of you.
I see no boundary that I can touch
but there's a boundary that my heart will not cross.
Hurt with words
slapped with lies
but I fail,
only to learn and grow.
You say one thing but your body says another,
may I be the first to say
I'm young but not dumb
I've seen enough,
heard enough,
and I'll take this no more.
It's not what you said it's what you didn't
it was your silent words that hurt.