No matter what I do
You're always gonna be
My backbone
My way that points me north

Once I fought many things -
My old scars will show you
I tried to walk on a flimbsy
Rope while looking down on all my
Frustrations and all its glory

My life was like a big ole circus act

It was so

I told people you knew my song
I heard you singing my song
My head was filled with your voice
So gentle and intricate
It well brings me home

I imagined turning around with the
Moon as our only light
You were using the lamppost as
A dance pole
You spun around it and
Kicked you leg up high

My childish pole dancer
You make me smile

I want you to know that you
Can stay in mind

I walked on the clouds, barefoot
adapted all sorts of societal
phenomena,

the ability of humankind to
fathom pain was put into my senses
bundled up in paintings
manufactured into sheets of canvas,

I turn my eyes into mirrors
two big words
I'M SORRY

sometimes I wonder why I falter
to this day I'm on my tiptoes seeking the
peek of light
but all there was was darkness in pieces

how can I not feel flippant about the
things I can comprehend
disturbingly harsh and loud
certainly of great magnitude

but all I dreamt of was running

i remembered jumping
the beautiful skies exploding inside of me
i once had a vision but now i have broken pieces
funny how we nibble on things we
know would tear us apart

i remembered having a
clear mind
peaceful soul, fresh air touching my skin
until it was toxic
and i got all worn out

i remembered all the pretty
photographs and happy adventures
one day i felt the unparalleled contentment
but it all faded
flash before my eyes like a bubble

i remember all the times i picked
all the wrong choices
and now i ask myself
"what went wrong"  
and i realised I went wrong