And suddenly i see the world differently,
Girls with bright smiles
and slit wrists.
Shining eyes.
Broken pasts.
Shattered beautifully.
Sharp pieces held together carefully,
walking, taking steps forward.
The pieces cutting deeper, inwards.
Fighting, battling.
Hurting, Dying.
****** struggle, Beautiful remains.
     No pain, No gain
            innit mate?

I can't believe I let someone get to me
Someone I helped
And did everything I could
For so long
When I couldn't.
When I shouldn't have.
But I needed to help
Because I saw myself in her
I saw the same choices
I saw the same heart.
But I couldn't help
And I'm now of no use
And my safe place is now
Somewhere riddled with whispers
With remarks
Somewhere I was edged out
Set aside
Watching
I can't believe I let someone in
And tried my very best
To be turned on
Like a snake coiled to strike
That I only ever saw the most beautiful scales on
Never noticing
The potential to turn
The potential to tear down
Everything I built up
Everything I pulled her up to
I shared with
Everything I did
To get struck
Emotionally torn down

I can't believe I ever tried
I never could be so callous
So harsh
As I always do
Only speaking good, only seeing good
Only ever trying
So
Very
Hard
To help.

everything's breaking
and i'm running
to the only place
i've ever known
to the only place
i've ever called home

i'm running to you-

And all the graphs, lines and figures.
All these words,verbs and expressions.

Seem to be...
A mechanic drone, a dry monotonic lecture,
By an uninterested , indifferent teacher.
So i closed my eyes shutting out the world.
Drowning their voices, views & wise words.

And like the knight in shining armor,
The savior, the survivor.
I heard it from within.

Rhythmic, continuous, consistent.
Strong, focused, Resilient.
Beat After Beat.
Never giving up, Nor giving in.

Its been this way from the very beginning.
& seemed to find no reason to give in.

I had the answers to my questions.
I knew it was right, So I closed my eyes...
And **Let My Heart Decide.