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As the day starts full of love and hope
Sun shines so bright not to feel woe
Vibrant flowers tickle her sight
Saying everything will be alright
Sweet cold wind touches her lips
To make her smile and save from grief
‘Cause he knows how precious her kind
Even how much she demeans her divine
Priceless laughter that he hears seldom
Inviting everyone to sing the psalm
Just when the sun turned to blue
Her dazzling soul also gone its hue
Afraid he was when the sun goes down
Witnessing her painted happiness waning out
And all was left are waves of her feelings, surging,
Still stirring yet welcomed to forever reside in him.
I wrote this to describe each days I am hopeful to have a beautiful day ahead. There are times that were really, really great but at the end of the day as I would close my eyes to rest, pictures of that beautiful day flashes and slowly vanishes into nothingness and it makes me feel blue. I thought of my life as pointless so I search for more meaningful days. I hope and most of us hope to find more, we’re all struggling to seek… jump to one place to another then abandon the place we thought we’re not belong to… we hurt people also we hurt ourselves. Then I realized maybe I am making things complicated finding what’s can’t be found. Because every day, every person we meet, every moment is something to be grateful for, nothing more to seek. And God who we abandoned million times are always there waiting for us to come back and reside with him. I know I am not yet fully fit to be with someone so kind and good, even not sure if I deserve the greatest love but I am here trying my best to be.