The goodbye kisses
you gave me tonight
Are the sweetest kisses
I've ever tasted
In my whole life

I want to give you a beautiful Japanese robe
I want to watch you walk from our living to our bedroom with that look in your eyes
I want to watch that robe fall to the floor
As you approach me full with desire and more

Kisses to my fathers cold, emotionless cheek
Makes the future of my self confidence very bleak

You picture our living room,
I picture our bedroom, hmmmmmm

I am not the diamond girl,
That is, I am not strong for compassion often overrules
I am not clear it is quite difficult for me to express my self on the first try
and hard no I'm soft a mush...
Although sometimes I wish I was strong, clear, and hard

But maybe I am the diamond girl
The diamond girl who emerged from a blackness-
That is prismatic
Ha! a piñata at times,
Shiny(glitter tactlessly applied),
With many faces, hmmm
Who am I tonight-

That is I!
That is the diamond girl
I am!
******* :)))

The many meeting places
Fill the empty spaces
Of my bullet ridden heart

Back seats and dark streets
Corner bars meant for ******
Anything for you my sweet

So how many more days, minutes,
seconds do we have to spend
Before this far apart ends...

As I look at you
across the kitchen table
All I could think is
you look absolutely
Delicious

Had to polish my old boots today
Because I gifted my last dollars away
Ah the novelty of poverty,
Short lived I'm sure

Stage one-
Flashes of your sweet face
Laced with sudden scents of you

Stage two-
A hungry hollow feeling
And the lingering of your sweet nothing's in my ear

Stage three-
Three days of
longing,wanting,wetness and
a missing you size lump in my throat
That I cannot for the life of me drink, eat, smoke,or distract away...

Help for the dark days of missing you are upon me

Long and painful are my days without you,
And heavy becomes my heart
Oh my darlin how I  despise
the days we are apart

Seeing your face at my door
Is the sweetest of surprises

Northern lights extremely beautiful
Tokyo furiously fun
A night in a castle in Germany
I trade every one
Every travel fantasy
For endless nights in a small rented apartment with you
I can't wait...

Seriously Santa...
You slay me!

Used to love to find them
Not quite sure why
Those sweet little purpley bruises
Reminders of thick fingers on
Hips, sides, thighs

They are the reminders of thick rough fingers
That pulled and prodded me
Out of misery
And into love

I need you
Not in the needy way
But more like in the way
Mere mortals need air...

I want you
Not like in the
another slice of pie way
But more like the Oh My-look at that exquisite dessert way

I love you
Not like in the I love you way
But more like in the I have never been so connected to anyone in my life way

I love and need and want you
In a way I never have before

I want to
And have
Taken chances
And risks
And losses
For you
Because
I want
So want
To be your girl

I see them
Your soft caramel colored eyes
They are beautiful
And reflect your truly beatuiful soul

Why must I break someone else's heart
To save my own
This is the greatest pain
I've ever known

Oh god
I have been ripped apart
By this game called love
And I really really need some help from above

I can still feel them
Warm sweet kisses on my
bare shoulder
Gentle and passionate
I could feel and others could see
How much you love me

Predictable? *******!
Your reassuring actions are never taken for granted, they bind me tightly to you.
And this pressure seems to create a lust, a desire for more.
And builds in me a loyalty that I'm sure you appreciate.

Oh darlin,
In this unstable sometimes scary world knowing you might come back helps me get through each day.

My sweetest of faces-
I never "know it"
only "hope it"
Only pray that you'll always return!

The big picture I see in many things
But not when it comes to you
I see the details
I see and truly appreciate
all of the beautiful things
that make up you

We are surrounded by drama it seems
It rips us apart
And we both struggle to put it back together
I look to the sky and say
How much longer can we do this
This wicked game
Who will bow out
Who will cave
I just end up so afraid...

I falling in so deep
It's probably something like death by chocolate!

There are no words but there are pictures that dance in my mind and warm my heart
When you are wearing your sweater or
Waiting for me to eat
Coming back to kiss me or
Playing my favorite songs
Bringing me tea and chocolate or
Choosing to order lunch instead of make it
An un expected rose or roses or
An unexpected plan
Surprise CDs or ...

Oh my darling I will never forget these supremely sweet gestures.
I could not even tell you with words how happy you make me, but-
My body feels like it's on its favorite spiny ride and it never wants to stop.

You have filled my world with love and
You're right!
There are no words but there are so many sweet scenes in my mind.
You are truly one of my kind!

I'm going to the sink to wash my hands
I start to remove my rings
And as I try to pull off the ring you gave me I realize it's stuck
Not like a sticky stuck but-
More like it's a part of me not meant to be removed

This is much like how I feel about you
You are so a part of me
That pulling away from you
Feels wrong and I will not do it
I'm not stuck

So I will not take my beautiful silvery ring off
You can
when you're ready
to put it on my other hand

Clear dark blue sky
A wonderful night of you and I
You swirl me around in that love dance
My heart doesn't stand a chance
And I realize that there is no way to resist
A passion like this

The 200-
My ride to love
my ride to ecstasy

My mind swirling with passion
Body aching with need
Absolutely under your spell my love
You'd  better take heed

When you said-
       "Once it's over, it's over"
I couldn't help but think,
I hope it will never be over between us.
And if the day finds us not together
I hope I will have had some sort of positive impact on your life.
You are my soul mate.
Our life together has changed me
In so many ways that I feel
What may come
       "It will never be over, you'll always have a place in my heart"

Tested
Torn
All of the past gone

Weak
Manipulated
All while being envied or hated

POP

I am missing you intensely
Feeling hollow inside

I am aching for your touch
Your hands rough and warm

I am craving your taste
Sweetly masculine

I am just half of me
Without you
Because I am yours

Trying to map out a way to you
Trying to anticipate all the stops I need to make
And how much I'll need
And where to stay
To bring me closer to you

Don't really want to get lost
And afraid that the trip might take too long
I pray by the time I get there
You are not gone-

Do you know that feeling-
The feeling when saying "I love you"
Is simply not enough
Simply not enough to express
what has got a hold of your heart.

Oh, I fear I'm there!
And I hope my lover knows that
every time I say I love him
I wish it had the all the power of
the first time I'd ever said it.

Then he would know how much I love him so.

She said,
I want you to wear a strand of tiny black beads about your neck with a few turquoise mixed in to show all the love and passion you have within and I want to be the one to give you these because I see you in them all the time in my mind
You are relaxed kicked back in a chair and your shirt is slightly open and I can see them there touching your heart dancing over your chest dangling close to the milky parts I like best.

I feel like we were cut short last night
Like a really good meal
where you left the last bite
And you find yourself dreaming of it during the night
There was so much more I wanted to do and to say
It feels as if I were ripped away

The sad part of it all
Is not that I want you-
But more that I needyou.

The way it feels to be with you-
I just felt like you were home.

I just could smell something that
Was so familar it caused something inside me to shift.

I will never not get emotional
Because when I did tonight
It was because I felt close, closer than ever before to having someone better suited for me.

I look forward to tonight with you  
To doing everything wrong
Not right with you

The images are rolling
through my mind
They are  powerful
and of the
lustful kind
Mixed with love
I'm happy to say
I wouldn't
couldn't imagine it
Any other way

In the mirror
we are close
the way we want to be
as if inside it
all the world can see

Watching us makes it real
Almost as if it
Reveals to the world
how we truly feel
No one can see
we're behind closed doors
But in the mirror
it seems as if  
it's confirmed,
I'm yours

Is that why you look
to see how we fit
Is that the image your looking for
And  I hope that I'm it

Your love is like a lucky charm I keep close to me
Hidden  from view deep inside my pocket
When low or out of sorts I reach in to find-
Your loving words
Your acts of kindness
Your support
Your lust
You are my lucky charm!

How can it be (that)
That powerful shot of vitamin G
Works every time

I love you
exactly how you are-
I love your shape, we fit together
I love your size, the pressure is perfect
I love your color, milky
Mmmmmmmm, you
are exactly
right for me.

The words I was writing are gone,slipped away
But the feeling has not-

Wants and needs do matter
Because prayers answered
Are different from idle chatter.

More romance  
the coin splashed
And that was it.
My heart danced!

And in just  a couple of months
I had me some
Some romance of the troubling kind
                          Not that I really mind
Because your love
makes me want to leave
                 all that average **** behind.

Only a day away and
I miss you-

Although I usually miss you
with my mind
The moon must have it that
I'm missing you with my body
Because ever since she's been full, so have I-

Full of visions
Full of desires
Filled with lust

And I fear that I am not wanting anymore
But now I'm needing...
Craving another taste
Another  touch

Tables and stairs-
Stares on tables
I know we will meet there again-
When we're able

I'm sorry about my shyness.
I want to accept your words  
Because I know they are the sweet blessings of love...  

So
Please...
Please don't stop
Please don't ever stop.
Because I've come so far
And you must have seen the
improvement
By the way I look in your eyes
When you're on top.

Sooooo loved your sermon today-
You've renewed my faith,
In  a celestial way.