Only the true ones stay
They help me move forward
We laugh together
We cry together
Nothing can change our bond
We’ve been there for each other
We’re comfortable with each other
Even though we might not say it,
We love each other
And we’ll always be

Life was full
I was oblivious to everything
Until one day,
I just felt empty
I heard my mom screaming
I heard my father yell back
After that day,
My mom became oblivious to me
Every year,
There wasn’t a parent at home
Just my grandma
My brother left
Oh how I miss him
Then it all came back,
My mom was yelling at my brother
All his efforts didn’t mean anything to her
She expects too much from us,
Children of broken homes
She cares about my physical appearance ,
Not my emotional state
She made home feel unsafe
She pressures me to do what I don’t want to
It’s all too much
But she’s all I have
A broken mom can’t help a family stand

Life was full
I was oblivious to everything
Until one day,
I just felt empty
I heard my mom screaming
I heard my father yell back
After that day,
My mom became oblivious to me
Every year,
There wasn’t a parent at home
Just my grandma
My brother left
Oh how I miss him
Then it all came back,
My mom was yelling at my brother
All his efforts didn’t mean anything to her
She expects too much from us,
Children of broken homes
She cares about my physical appearance ,
Not my emotional state
She made home feel unsafe
She pressures me to do what I don’t want to
It’s all too much
But she’s all I have
A broken mom can’t help a family stand

Walking
Talking
Just living life
Then, I scream

It all comes at once
It seems as if there's no space for me to breathe
It seems like there's too many people to breathe
Yet, I feel like there's no one there
No one to save me
I scream

I'm confused
My heart's racing
I start to tear up
All of this out of nowhere
I scream

I start looking at everything rapidly
As if I were scared of something catching me
I look at everything
Remembering everything that might trigger another attack later
I start fidgeting
I peel the skin off my thumb
I scream

Everyone looks at me confused
They probably wonder why a girl just randomly cried and ran away
The people that could help me feel so far away
No one can save me
Much less myself
My anxiety wins
I lose another battle
I scream

They go to soon
Just because there wasn't enough we did
We could've helped them
Helped them not suffer as much
We could've showed them that there was still light in life
But all we did was walk by
Ignoring their problems
Another loss
All because we couldn't muster the courage
We could've saved a life
But all we did was lose one
Oh how sweet they were
Their pain wasn't shown
But we knew it was there
One word could've made a difference
But we chose to stay silent

I hated myself so much
I hated the way I looked
But someone saw beauty in me
They saw kindness in my personality
I loved him with all my heart that I forgot how to love myself
I felt not good enough for him
I asked him why me when there is a lot of other people better for him
He told me it was because I was me
I realized that I wasn't all alone
I realized that he would always be there for me
Even if I hated myself,
He'd love me
He said I love you
And I realized that he was the best thing that's ever happened to me

It's that feeling were everything seems too good to be true
But it really is
Something wonderful is actually happening in your life
You feel overwhelmed
You try your best to be the best person for them
Even though there love is unconditional for you
You still feel like there's something you can do better
You always bring yourself down
But their love for you doesn't let you fall there anymore
Their love is all you really need
Their love is true and pure
It can't get any better