I loved you with gentleness and you threw it all away.

You liked mysteries and sneaking out late.

You told me I was a distraction and she was a drug.

When you were sad my calmness was nice. But when she was around you didn't even remember my name.

I thought in my mind writing your name a hundred times in my journal would make you love me more.

But my eyes were brown, it reminded you of dirt.

Her eyes were blue and you realized you loved the sea more then you loved me cause I reminded you of the trees.

Silent days when you were reading in the woods, but you were on vacation when you realized the sea was your favorite place to be.

The pages in my journal scattered everywhere.

The sheets were messy. My hands were bare.

I passed back and forth watching you lay asleep.

I swear I didn't stare.

This place smelled with cheap perfume and cigarettes.

We said we stay forever but maybe a day or two if we last.

"Never go to sleep sad" he told me as  he left

From then on I couldn't even rest.

He broke my heart and all I could think about was "never go to sleep sad"

Lately it's all I've been doing. Those words were a faint reminder of you.

I couldn't get out of my head

I was in a nightmare trying to wake up.

I remember your smile and your warm hugs.

I couldn't take the misery of missing you so much

So I made my self wake at the quarter of dusk.......

I had a nightmare you weren't with me anymore. I woke up in a panic, and you were at my door.
Told me that you loved me and you had to leave. My nightmare became reality in the seams.  


I cried for days when you were gone, my tears became a ocean of sadness. I tried and tried to forget your eyes, but all I remember were the sweet times.

I tried to forget and I tried to hide, the feelings I felt deep inside.

You became my muse.
I wrote about your eyes,
Sang about your words,
And
Saw you in my dream.

You told me I was the best thing that happened to you, but you don't understand you're my air.
With out you I'm lost.
I can't breath, or think straight.
I need you.
More
Then
You
Would
Ever
Dare
To
Know.

I looked in your eyes hoping I could see our past.
Hoping to feel love again, but our love was like a old book you never finished.
It sat in your book shelf slathered in dust.
I realized over the year I became your book, and our relationship was the dust......