You want me
You take all of me
My many flaws
Covered up by painful scars

You want me then
You accept my past
All my failures,
My guilt, my shame

You want me you have to work
I promise it won't be easy
To take my pain away
Kiss away all the scars
Heal the pain
Protruding in my heart

You want me
You shower me
With love and affection
Show me what it's like to be loved
Take my hand as we
Throw ourselves into the unknown

Once upon a time
In a land far far away
We heard that
Roses are red and
Violets are blue

I don't know about you
But I'm sick of hearing
That same old  story

We're born
We grow up
Get old
And die
The cycle repeats

How about if this story
Wasn't on permanent repeat

Lost in the
Beat of the music
Helping me to
Lose reality
While finding myself

Heart beats to
The music
Making my
SOUL complete

Is this normal
That music is
Taking over me?

Painful childhood
Lead to a sad,
Broken little girl
Who never knew what to say

Those words
Sharper than the
Blade of a knife
Killed her inside

****, *****, fat ugly
All turned her into
One ****** up
Broken little girl

All those words that broke
Some younger version of
That lonely little girl
Are the words that
Made her strong enough
To speak out today

Stella was
Unwanted and unloved
I knew her well
Couldn't help her
I tried my best to save her
Don't let her go
Everyone's hate was the death of her

I am not the person who
Will break up with you
Tell you you're not good enough
Give up when things get tough

Nor will I lie to
Spare your feelings or mine
If I didn't say I love you
I didn't mean it at the time

I will put in the effort
All the time
No matter how hard it is for me to
Deal with the constant battle
Raging in my head

I am not going to be okay
As much as you want me to be
I'll tell you I'm fine
Lie just to make you happy

I will fight to then end
After you have given up
But when I finally give up on you
Say how I feel
I become selfish

Somehow trying to
Escape this torment
Being alone in a relationship
Putting in the effort
Telling you I love you
(yes I still do)

You pushed me so far
Wanted me to leave
When I tried to go
You were the one who
Told me not to go

Trying to leave
Do it the right way
So I wouldn't get hurt
Not having the nerve
To walk out
Knowing it would hurt you

Lost, confused, hurt
Yet still here, with you
How did you
Get me to stay?
After all
You were the one that
Pushed me away

Dear muse
I know I said
This was over but
There are still things
Left unsaid
Things you need to know

I can't just leave
Everything we had behind us
It meant
So much to me

We were friends for
Six years and I
Thought that meant something
Maybe our friendship
Could come first

You threw
Everything away and
Wonder why I'm hurt

I loved you so much
Somehow still do
I would give everything to
Be with you

You know so
Much about me
The things I told you are all real

I want you back
In my life
We had something good

Dear muse
I deserve answers
The least you could do
Is tell me the truth so I can
Finally let go
Of what we
Used to be

Dear Mitch
You are the
Realest part of me
Even though you don't exist

Nobody accepts you, and
I am sorry
Sorry you won't find the
Happiness we deserve

I am holding on
Mostly for you to
See if you will
Thrive in a world I'm floundering in

I know parts of you
Mitch, you are happy
Living in a body that is scar free

You have a future
One beyond your
Twenties and Thirties
You have a zest for life
One that I am losing

This body
This life
It's yours to take
I need you

I hope one day
The world understands
Why you are so much
Better more
Deserving
Of this life than me

If you really cared about me
You'd be here for me
Now
When I'm breaking
Crying
Trying to fight off
Memories that hurt so bad
I might as well be dead

If you cared
You'd know
How scared I was
That I'm hurt

You say you care
You don't
I need you
NOW
Guess what?
YOU'RE NOT HERE
Please I need you

I wish I could say
That I've changed
All my regrets are
Ghosts of the past
That I've learned from all my mistakes

But I can't
I'm still just a kid
I'm growing up
Trying to find my place

I don't want to regret anything
Right now I regret you
You devil who
Built me up
To take away my soul

I'm not afraid of you
Anymore
There's nothing left
For you to take

So just goaway
Stay out of my life
Don't you see
How badly you've ruined ne

Take these memories
You already have the
Rest of me

Take my heart
It's beating
Just for you

Take my soul
My whole
My everything

Sorry I'm such a bad friend
All my efforts to please you
Were never good enough

Sorry that
Every time you needed me
I dropped everything for you

When my heart was broken
I gave the pieces left to you

Sorry that you
Couldn't accept me
No matter what I did
You always put me down

And I'm sorry
It took so long for me
To leave the toxicity
That you caused me

You're so vain
You probably think
I wrote this poem about you
That I think of you
That I still care at all

The truth is
I miss you
I wish you meant
Nothing at all

You asked me if I loved you
I asked myself what it meant
This is what I came up with

The truth is
I never really knew what love was
Until I met you

All the little things
Small jokes to make me laugh
A hug to make me smile
Are intensified

The darkness in my brain
The shadows that cloud my memories
Are lifted when you talk to me

You know all the little things
My favorite color my favorite animal
Even know who Sam and Spencer are

You know my past
Are part of my present
Lead me into
A better future

You're the one
I don't want to share
Who I could spend hours
Sitting with just doing nothing

You've seen the real me
Haven't run away
You know who I am
Yet still decided to stay

This is what
Being in love
Really means to me

Don't you see the tears
Behind these sad brown eyes

Don't you hear the screams
Inside my head
Begging you to stay

I'm here don't you see
I'm not invisible
Just waiting   for you to find me

Don't you smell the fear
Emanating off of me
As you so easily choose
To  walk away

Do you know
all the pain inside
That not even
The blood coming from the
Blade is able to hide

I guess you don't care
Enough to stay
Maybe it's better
If you just walk away

Lost in the
Beat of the music
Helping me to
Lose reality
While finding myself

Heart beats to
The music
Making my
SOUL complete

Is this normal
That music is
Taking over me?

Fingers flying across the
Keyboard
Freshly clipped from the
Confines of my mind
Wishing these words
Made sense
Meant something to
Any faceless name


Trying to
Escape the memories
Past has left behind
Destruction left in its wake
Never holding the
Culprit responsible

Your touched is
Etched into my body
From a time before
Everything surrounding me
Broke with each breath

Solace isnt good for me
Left alone too long
Thoughts creep back in
Reminding me that
Broken has been surpassed

Not sure how long
Its been of
Existing without
Living or surviving
But I know that
Im alone in this

Nobody knows the truth
Emotional exorcism of
Dark days
Not so long gone

Thought I was better
What a lie
My scars can tell you
Different stories

Truth will always
Be hidden behind
Madness and lies
But it's there
Reminding me
What I've done

Trust is my
Biggest flaw
Forever a mistake
The ones I need
Always leave

I had to make some
Mistakes to
Figure out who I am
My mistakes made me the
Person I am today

Growing up I was
Never a know it all
Didn't really know
I had a voice
When I found my voice
I was too afraid to use it

At school
I stayed silent
Let everyone speak
To me, for me, about me
Those people
Didn't even know me

At home
My voice was overpowered
By my siblings
Who knew more than me
I just let everyone else
Get their way

Always a follower
Never a leader
Maybe that's why
I had to act out to
Find my way

Even now
Using my voice is scary
My family tells me to
Speak my mind
They get annoyed when I'm silent
When I speak
They never want to hear it

I want to do right
But everything's wrong
How can I be sure
That I do what's best for me
Instead of what other people
Decide is best?

Growing up is hard
Making mistakes
Learning how to
Grow thick skin and
Get over your problems
Can be difficult when you
Never learned
How to like yourself

Dear muse
I cant stop it
Stop myself from loving you
Youre on my heart and in my mind

My heart
Still aches for you
Bleeds for you and my
Mind has attached itself to
Your memory

In the worst ways
Im suffocating and
Killing myself waiting

Dear muse
I dont know what to think
I needed you to be there
So you decide its
Best to disappear

I love you more than
My heart and mind
Have the capacity for
But nothing could scare me away
Make me walk out the door

I love you more than
Endless words that are
Impossible to say
Ones that won’t do you justice
At the end of the day

I love you more than
That song I play on repeat
The one that helps me pick up the pieces
In the midst of a defeat

The fact is I love you
More than fiction
Allows me to
Escape what we call reality
Because you are better than any fantasy

I love you more than
Lazy days gone by
Ones that never
Make me want to cry


I love you more
Than you’ll ever know
I hope one day I’ll be able
To show it and I hope
One day you’ll feel it too

Dear heartbreak
I shouldve known
Shouldve seen you
Sitting on the doorstep
Waiting to
Welcome me home

I shouldnt have brushed you off
Pushed you to the side
You were still waiting
Knowing Id find my way back
Back to you

Baby,
You did a number on me
Took hold of and
Controlled me

I gave up
So much of
Myself to you
Stopped eating
Hardly living
Barely breathing

Im finally
Taking myself back
Please
Understand that

There's no more tears when
Your name flashes through my mind
No more heartbreak
When I remember how you
Walked out the door

Theres no more pain
You were the one who
Walked away
What a shame

I will not hold on to you anymore
This is the last time you get to
Leave me all alone

I won't wait around for you
To not love me too
I'd be crazy to

I'm not holding on anymore
Hope, love, happiness
All out the door

If you ever come back
I'll shut the door in your face
I'll have the
Pieces of my heart
Back in a good place

Promise me this:
You'll catch me when I fall
Wipe my tears away
Make me laugh when I'm about to cry
Pick me up when I fall down
Love me even when you're not around

Being told you
Having the right
To express your feelings
Is nice
Until you realize
That's not entirely true

Having thoughts and
Expressing feelings is great
But people still shut you down
Tell you it's wrong
To feel that way

Freedom of speech is a lie
When you're told
You can say what you want
Then you get in trouble for it

I mean you have the right
To be offended by my opinion
But there's a fine line between
Telling someone they're inappropriate and
Censoring everything they say

Crawl with me
Stand with me
Walk with me

Sing with me
Dance with me
Play with me

Eat with me
Drink with me

Like me
Care for
But above all
Please love me

Dear muse
I am done
Beating myself up
Over your decisions

You could have
Done better
Made time for us
Kept a friendship
You could have stayed
Should have stayed

This has
Taken up
Too much of my life
Swallowed me whole

It's been over
Longer than I've
Been willing to admit
It's not like I
Moved on in a week

Even if I had moved
So fast from you
It's not as bad as
Leaving when we
Were us
When he loved
Each other to the end

All the lies
Have eaten me up
For such a long time
Distance ****** but we
Could have figured it out

I don't need to
Scar my skin
Starve my body
Lose my mind for
Someone who
Played me and
Wouldn't actually
Care
If I was gone

Dear muse
I have moved on
Found parts of myself
Thought long gone
Discovered my
Passion for writing

Dear muse
Yes there's someone new
But don't think
I've totally
Forgiven and forgotten you

Poetry is like
Magic on the page
Using words to bring
Stories to life

Poetry taught me how
Music is a fraud
You don't need to
Repeat the same thing
Over and over
To get your message across

I never connected to music
The way poetry connected to me
It gave me an outlet a
Place I belonged

Music uses tricks to
Keep you interested
Instruments, chords, melodies
Poetry is made by the
Person who speaks it

Music is so straight forward
It's in simple terms
Poetry isn't all simple
You have to read between the lines

People usually
Get the same message from a song
In a poem there are many messages
Many ways to read and interpret

People can quote lines from songs
How many can quote
Verses of poetry?

Music is great though
I love music
Poetry is just
More important to me

In my poems
I am free to
Be who I want
I am free to
Be who I am

Dear...
This empty space
Who cares about me

This is finally it
The end that I've waited for
I've been so far gone
For way too long

Everyone around me
Much better off
Without me in their lives
Will be happy to see me gone

Sorry that you had to
Find my body this way
Torn and broken
Waiting to decay

When I'm gone
Don't miss me
I'm always here
A sliver of
Broken memory

Feelings going all around
One hour its up
The next three it's down
Emotions flying around town

This is me
This is real
Please don't tell me
How I should feel

Are we friends?
More than that?
I don't know
Dude-
This is your call

So make your choice
Friends
Best friends
Dating

I'd rather be friends
Just friends
Having a boyfriend is
Too much for me


Just friends is
Fine with me
Just one thing
Don't hurt me-
AGAIN

Dear special nobody
On this Valentine's Day
I'm wishing for you

You're not here
But my heart
Still purrs for you

All I want
Is you, is us
An imperfect two

I'll love you
Every second of
Every day

I'll hold on hope
That you'll feel the same
Maybe love me too

Hopefully soon
You'll be my
Special somebody

Until then
I'll write for you
As long as I have to

I think I like him
What do I know
It could be just a crush
Will these feelings grow?

Just a crush
At least so far
Is it more
Could this be love
Could it be
He is the one

Thinking of him
Puts butterflies in my stomach
Talking to him
Gets me all jittery

He's so sweet
And strong
And nice to me
I have a crush
Could it be

****** up and
Insecure because people are
Never
Ever nice

Dear muse
I hate the way
It feels
Like nothing
We had was real

We definitely had
Something special
Between us two

Even if it was
Just friends I
Never had anyone
Like you in life

I thought we would
Last forever
Have a love that
Refused to die out

I wanted us
To be together
To have a life
To feel love
Us two together

Dear muse
I hate writing about us
In past tense
Hate what we had
Is over now
I hope someday
We find our way back

You think I'm so
Scared of you
Your insults
Haunting my
Every waking moment

You think I'm afraid
To hear the same thing
Every single day
Be reminded
I'm dumb I'm ugly
I'll never be good enough
Not for you not for me
Not for anybody

Just remember
I know what you think
I know I can't do anything right
The insults just keep coming
Until I can't handle it

One day I disappeared
Went away
Because your words may
Have scared me
But your words
NEVER did more damage
Than the knife

Roses are red
Violets are blue
This is my poem
It's all for you

You are my achilles heel
A man after my own heart
Your love is my drug
It caught me off guard
Now my heart is yours
Forever and always

This is the calm before the storm
The day before the night
We have each other
So let's enjoy this moment

Winner take all
So take my heart it's yours to keep
As long as you don't let me fall

It's hard to be
Original these days
Every word has
Already been spoken
Each phrase
Done to death

Every idea is a cliche
It's all been done before
Yet we claim
Our ideas are our own
Even though
Someone long ago
Thought of it before

When you walked away
You made a mess of everything inside me
Broke my fractured heart
Into a million little pieces
Left without even having the
Strength to say goodbye to me
Now I have to find the strength
To go on without you
Standing by my side

You walked away from us
Gave away everything we had
With the way things ended
Well I guess I should be glad

When you walked away
From everything we had
Everything we were
You messed up all that we could’ve been
Broke everything we built up
Guess it all meant nothing to you
Being in a committed relationship
Must’ve been really scary for you

You walked away from us
Gave away everything we had
With the way things ended
Well I guess I should be glad

I guess you never really cared
Not about me or us
You ran away from
Commitment and love and
Feeling anything at all
One day you’ll change
Become better
I won’t be waiting for you anymore
I’ll have already been long gone

You walked away from me
Took away everything I
Thought we could be
Should’ve known you were going to be
Just another disappointment to me

Suicide is not a ***** word!
It's helplessness
It's feeling like an ending will
Benefit those around it
It is death for a cause
It's leaving behind a world
That refused to believe in
Struggle they can't see



Depression is not a ***** word!
It's a vortex of
Emptiness
Swirling through my veins
Smiles that fail to hide the pain
A sadness that ***** the
Joy from daily activity
Preventing me from
Doing more than merely existing

Anxiety is not a ***** word!
It's an abundance of mental energy
Keeping me up late at night
It's consuming
Nerves that never leave
Thoughts you can't shake
Despite how they've shaken you

Mental health is not *****
Its's not something that should be
Wrong or
Frowned upon

We need to change this narrative
Because it's not a death sentence
And we don't need to be outcasts
Acceptance goes a long way

I loved you once
Then again
Loved you too many times
To love you ever again

Insecure in her skin a
Human breathing puppet
Why don't you open the door
Welcome her inside
Let her know there's
Somewhere she belongs

That girl is lonely
Wears her heart on her sleeve
She wants to be found
Wants to belong to somebody

That girl has no one
Nowhere she belongs
This is a shout out to the world
For someone to find her

That girl is hidden
Behind books and poetry
That girl is dying inside
That girl is me

I'm broken and
I'm bleeding
I'm not the person
You wanted me to be
But you can have
All these shattered
Pieces of me

Feeling my heart go up in flames
Can't hold in all this pain
Burning soul lost all hope
Clawing for something to hold onto

Heart of ice grown so cold
Iced out forever
Frozen down to the core

One moment hot next he's cold
Love then hate
Fire then ice

Driving me crazy
With his vices
Love or hate
Who is he to me

Dear muse
Is this the end?
Will my mind finally
Withdraw from the
Memories clinging

These memories need to be
Burnt with the rest of my heart
Crumble and disappear
A wisp of smoke

I still don't know
Whats real
Too many unanswered
Questions words
Wanting to be spoken

Dear muse
I am
Tired of this
You refuse to say
You were wrong
Admit you caused
This pain

You and me forever
That was such a lie
You said we'd always be together
Boy you had all the right lines

You said I love you
So many times
Those words
Meant everything to me
They meant nothing, a
Sputtering river from your mouth

You meant the world to me
Built me up
When I thought no one
Would ever love this broken catastrophe

Now we're nothing
You're not my baby
There is no you and me

No matter what
You'll always have a piece of
This broken heart

Maybe this pain will never stop
A never-ending well of hurt
Consuming my everything
Pulling me towards darkness
Maybe things would be better
If you heard this cry for help and
Came to save me

Then again maybe
You aren’t what I need
I’m better off
Without you in my life

Maybe this pain was
All because of you
You were never worth my time
This was nothing to you
Too bad the
Joke's on you

Dear best friend
So I have a lot of feelings, and I've been holding this in for a long time.
I know you don't read my RA's, but if you end up seeing this please don't be mad.

As you know I'vb been on here for quite a while.  
You were one of my first friends on here. Been together since the start.
now it seems like we're drifting apart
you never talk to me anymore
It feels like you don't care

We used to be so close
Talk every day
Have a real relationship
Love each other

It feels like you're neglecting me
Forgetting about our friendship
i thought I meant something to you
You used to be my everything
We were meant for more than this


These feelings hurt
Like you're not here
I want you to understand
That it hurts
How I want to kick you in the nuts
Until you realize
I'm right here

Should I even try anymore
when you don't care
I need you now
why aren't you here

You don't talk to me anymore
At least not like you used to
Please come back to me
I really miss you
More than anything
Would you
Understand me please

Love is a myth
A story passed down from
Generation to generation
Parent to child
The one emotion
With no proof of a reality

There’s some proof of
Every other emotion
When you’re happy
Your lips spread wide and you
Flash your teeth to whoever’s looking
When you’re sad unwanted
Tears roll down your face
When you’re embarrassed your
Cheeks flush bright red rose

Love is a fairytale
One that may or may not
Begin with a
Once upon a time
Rarely ever really ends up
Happily ever after

Love is a drug
Try it once you
Get hooked
Love makes you a
Happy kind of high
Oblivious to reality
When you breakup
Reality crashes you like a
Steamroller
Instead of going down
You can always take another hit





Love is every girls dream
Their vision of their future
It starts at a young age
Even  when boys have cooties
Then they grow older,
Scribble hearts with their
Initials in their notebook
Stare at their crush when he
Supposedly isn’t looking

As they grow older
Girls version of love
Starts with a perfect boyfriend
Probably during the high school or college years
Graduating high school
Going on to college
Getting their dream down, then
Finally settling down
Ends in a perfect marriage
They’ve dreamed out their whole life

In the end
Love is a letdown
Ultimately made to
Blindside you
Break your into a million pieces

Somehow people make love out to
Sound like the perfect escape
From a past of fear and loneliness
Yet not so great when you find it’s
Virtually impossible to find a
Guy who’s ready to
Get down on one knee
Ask to spend the rest of forever with you
One who isn’t afraid to commit

Yet people still
Have hope to find this
Elusive magic potion that
Claims to make your fear go away
Make you stronger
Claims the effects will last forever

Maybe one day this
Crazy theory of love
Will be proven
So we know we’re not all
Chasing a hopeless dream

Until then play love’s game
Who knows
Maybe you’ll be the one to hit the jackpot

It's storming, and your house is on fire
The power's gone out
The devil's at your door
Could you ask for anything more

Yet that was all
Your lovely imagination
What's going on here
Is much worse

Your parents are yelling
Dad's drunk
He lost his job
Taking all his anger out on mom

Mom's shaking
Too weak to fight back
Worst part is
You're watching this scene unfold
Wishing you had a way out

Pieces you left of me
Shattered over the floor
Walking on glass
It's no surprises I have
Scars covering my body

You knew I was broken
When you left
But you took advantage
Acted like you cared

I was nothing before
What would that make me now?
Silent, broken, alone
I'll never be
Anywhere near whole

Dear muse
I dont want to
Feel this anymore
All the pain and heartbreak
Caused by your selfishness

I am tired
Blaming myself ***** and
I need something to change

I lnow this isnt
All my fault
All in my head

Its real and flying to
These pages
No longer blank canvases

Dear muse
Just talk to me
One more time
Give me the answers I
Seek to make me whole
Close the door and
Start a fresh chapter