ChubbehMonkey

ChubbehMonkey May 2016

You Want

Comfortable place
Missed embrace
**** your rotting face

Eager boy
Full of joy
I'm not your *** toy

Yummy lips
And our grinding hips
Let me lick the finger tips

You love this
You need this
You want this

Enough
Called this bluff
But he's still got the good stuff

Can't stay
Can't get the **** away
Lost everyday

Bend over
Try for a four leaf clover
Faced with foul odor

You love this
You need this
You want this

You you you
You you
You

ChubbehMonkey May 2016

Some kinda insanity

Come back to me
Some kinda insanity
It's feeding the hungry
And I'm scrawny
Come back to me
Some kinda crazy eyes
Or beer goggles
The only things that make me pretty
Come back to me
Some kinda devil
Please me
Mix me up in some kinda evil
Give me a scandal
Manic episodes, an abusive lover
That's my perfect overdose
Come back to me
Some kinda insanity
I'm so close
And I'm so hungry
Just one more overdose
******* end me
Make me pretty
Now laugh
Now cry
Now smile
Lover boy, **** me
Make me ugly
Or cut me till I'm lovely
Lover boy, make me pretty
Unwind then cuff me
Come back to me
Some kinda insanity

#broken #heart #alone #insanity #insane #drestuction

ChubbehMonkey May 2016

Mathematical

I like numbers and lines
Not the imaginary kind
I don't like money
Rules or guidelines
And if I'm being honestly, I don't really care for the ticking clock of time
But I have an obsession with the repetitive pattern
The spiral staircase we are all walking up or down
Following the same path
As any other mass
Again and again
Finding our place
Through actions that are predictable
Almost mathematical

#life #society #science

ChubbehMonkey May 2016

Baby

Baby
Girl
Naked
Showing more than skin
Red eyes, bleeding
Out
The whole ocean
Fake
*****
Clothed
Covering it all up
Red lips, lying
Like
"We might hookup"
Baby
Can't I help you
Your Fragile figure
Your Stick figure
Why can't I make you eat dinner
Keep Getting thinner
Keep Getting thinner
Baby
Please have some dinner
Angel
In the mirror
Screaming at a sinner
Took your soul to the pawnshop
Exchanged for that pretty skin
Tell me
How is it not to feel anythin' ?

Pretty Eating disorder ugly help masks

ChubbehMonkey May 2016

Lost

No one
Is a replacement
Trashcan?
*******
Center of the universe
More like it
But You didn't see it
My head Over heals
Love sick
So you know what?
**** it
**** it
Puke chunks
Hoping I purge you out
Not likely
So I jus keep spinning
In a crowd
Dizzy
Lovely
Voices Drown you out
**** this
Smoke clears
And I'm seeing ugly
Hating the moment
But You didn't see it
My head over heals
Love sick
So you know what?
**** it
**** it
Maybe we're both guilty
Partners in crime
Truly
Looking for attraction
In destruction
Cause you know,
You smell just like it

Love sick lost empty self destruction toxic relationship

ChubbehMonkey Mar 2014

positive affirmation

I live in the present
I hold no resentment in my heart
I care because it makes me feel good
Not because I need the attention
I have a future
A bright future
I accept stress and use it as fuel
I embrace my past and the moments I regret
I understand that I am unique
Unlike anyone
I accept who I have become

ChubbehMonkey Feb 2014

Sick and Tired

I may only be seventeen years old, but I can already tell you this
that I am sick and tired
I am sick of the people who are judgmental and the people who are unkind
The people who tell Atheists they are going to hell and the people who mock Christians for wanting something to believe in
I’m sick of the hateful way people speak to each other and how everyone tries to form some kind of negative opinion about one another
I’m sick of the bullies in school who drive kids to suicide
and the parents who never taught them to be kind
I’m sick of macho boys thinking its cool to hate and easy girls with zero self-esteem
but more than that I'm sick of the society that made them feel this way
I’m tired of the snobs who turn up their noses at self-expression and of the hipsters frowning upon the so called conformist squares
I’m tired of making my own life choices based on a fear of someone else’s negative reaction I’m tired of people who look for the flaws in my life instead of basking in the beauty of their own.
I am fed up with people who complain about the clinically depressed and the people who spitefully use their own rain cloud to block out the sun
I’m fed up with people who don't know how share and people who take advantage of their friends
I’m fed up with cheaters, liars and the inconsiderate
All in all I am fed up with cruelty itself
It serves no purpose other than to blind people from the beautiful reality of our lives
Hatefulness needs only to be replaced by love and acceptance and then perhaps there will be an overall higher level of happiness