Hold me
love me
please me
pleasure me
**** me
hate me
leave me
alone

Mommy
Explain to me
these urges
They scare me
like tripping down the stairs
Just to feel my head cave in
contemplating scratching a hole through my skin
to expose the monster within
or taking the kitchen knife to my gut
Because, frankly I don't give a ****
Mommy explain to me
Why nobody will love me
cant you at least still hold me?
the world has gotten so lonely

How I long for the love of a girl
Her head over heels
Crazy
Madly
In love
yet My desire is not for her flesh
but only for her worry
her tears
her sensitivity
And for my own perfection through her eyes

I cant take another day as a crumpled puppet on the floor
aching heart breaking
I can't take one second more
I am a pile of bones to gnaw on
a stump for disgusting fungus to grow on  
anger agony self pity its all a part of the misery that is feasting
I'm failing, my pathetic attempt at faking is wavering
there is no mistaking my weakness and day after day i come home to collapse like a husk
crying a fresh puddle upon dampened carpet
I know I can't take this anymore

**** me
ill go willingly
your smile is so lovely and suddenly you're stabbing me
allowing you to ****** me, and its alright that you're hurting me
It's the end of life and I can feel your knife
screams in the night and you can feel my fright
lips pressed to your hallow chest , you promised you'd love me best
its getting darker and blood drips like water
I can hear you cry, baby don't die
slowly filling with regret and my last breath you can never forget