i don't speak science and
i don't speak God.
i wish i spoke either,
i wish i spoke both.

i hope you choke
on every i love you
**** you
****
you.

Say what's on your mind.
Say what's in your head.
Tell me what's wrong and tell me what's there.
I know you're broken.
I know that you're hurt.
I know she's still there.
She's in your head and in your heart.
Doesn't mean that love will tear us apart.
Claryss in the room.
Claryss in your thoughts.
No matter what you say this is breaking you apart.
And I...
I want you to know that everything is okay with me.
I know that you don't find comfort in that.
It's okay.
It's okay.
Claryss in the room.
Claryss in your thoughts.
And I can feel her breaking my heart.
She tore you to pieces and left you for dead.
And now I know, though I don't know her, she's in my head.

I reserve the right
To love myself
Instead of you.
I will not fight
You on this matter
I do not owe you
My energy.
I am woman
And I will roar
Only if I want to.
And if I do roar
It will be for my ears only.
I do not roar for you
I do not roar for your contemptuous looks
For your verbal right hook.
I will not be brought down
For all that you claim you can offer me
For I claim that you offer me
Nothing more than a mirror
Of my own flaws.
I see my flaws
And I raise you yours
Right back, now.
Acknowledge your weakness.
Acknowledge yourself.
Acknowledge this:

I reserve the right
To love myself
Instead of you.

I was in a
Car wreck today.
My seat got the worst,
No seat belt on
And I flew.
Luckily I
Put my hands up and
Grabbed the seat in front of me or
I would've died.

Funny how my
Wish almost came true.

Happy birthday to me.

And on her patterned wrist
She scratched
*Please Don't Go

"That's so gay!"
A use of
Slang and slander
In
The
Wrong
Direction.

If they use
Gay as in
Happy
The
Way
Most
Have
Forgotten
It would be a good expression.

But if they use it
As a reference to
Homosexuality
Then
I
Don't
Get
It
I
Won't
Get
It.

You can't be more gay
Than someone else.
There's no scale
Or
Chart
To measure
Gayness

And it's a bad expression
So gay is
Bad?

No.

Gay is not bad.

People who say "That's so gay."

They are bad

I want to write
And I want to write far
Farther than distance and
Farther than a mile feels when you're
Expected
To run in gym class.

I want to
Inspire.

And the word seems
Thick
Like elephant skin
Or those
Cracked leather jackets that bikers wear.

It seems 'out there'
Like a planet
Somewhere that we
Haven't sent probes to.
In the middle of swallowed up
Space.

But I want to
Inspire

Like
J.K. Rowling
Or
E.B. White
Or
J.R.R. Tolkein

And all of those other
Blocked up
Official sounding
Initials.

I could have initials.
Be E.M. Tyler or just
E. Tyler.
And people would
Wonder what the E. stood for

And one day I would
Sign an autograph
"Emily"
And they would call
The New York Times
And the search would be over
And ambitious fans
Would exclaim in exhuberance.

And they wouldn't have even read my book yet.

The clothes on my back
have nothing on
how your eyes flash
your nails that rash
red trails down my back
the shoes on my feet
could never beat
you lying next to me
breathe you in deep
youre mine to keep
but glitter falls from clouds
and the curtain closes
take a bow, shows over
later you'll come over
bite marks trace my shoulders
roll me under
roll me over
the sheets on my bed
cant get out of my head
your arms
your skin
Id rather be instead