I've missed some days
days I cant take back
but does it really matter?
in the end I'm always drowning
loneness, the prison that holds me
depression, my roommate
you haven't missed much
just some words not worth hearing

depressed
drown
sing
love
hate
dance
live for a moment
and then                   die
plummet  
down
    down
         down
             no matter what
                    I'm always depressed

still hurting inside
sounds of cries yet to silence
tears continue to fall ever so gently
thoughts devour me
my mind is lost
and my heart is starved
waves throw me off the beach
to take me into their home
land is no longer visible

cant breath
its happening again
the ocean goes hightide
my body refuses to move
I sink into oblivion
my tears become
one with the ocean cries

cant breath
the stars take me into the night
lost in the darkness
frozen in space
my tears refuse to leave my eyes
they freeze in the night

unwanted memories rush in

this feeling is suffocating

I dreamt of you last night
the bitterness of seeing you again stung
like sault to an opened wound
I was exposed
my truest colors being one with the wind
your truest smile still fresh in my memory

In this nightmare
you still loved me
as I loved you
it scared me
the feeling of having my best friend back

in the beginning
I thought it was real
then realization kicked in
It was merely relived memories
I still miss you sometimes

When I awoken
tears still fresh from emotion
laid upon my face
the melancholy taste still stung my heart
I wanna forget about you again
it hurts to remember
how much you mean to me

I cant help but wonder
if the ghost of our happiness
haunts you too