It's not nearly like
Wanting to **** myself
So
Don't you ******' worry

At the end of the day,
We cannot tell
If we are
Lucid or
Mad

Nvm
JK
False alarm

He was just *****

LOL

We're all
Just finding
More clever
Ways to
**** each
Other slowly

GET

the

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loving

****

OUT

OFMY

*******
*******
o­hmyfuckinggodiFUCKINGhateyou

H
E
A
D

seriously
please
imb­eggingyou

And maybe eat ****

If you aren't living,
You're dying

If you aren't loving,
You're losing

If you aren't eating,
You're starving

If you aren't living,
You're dying!

Ol' girl-
It looks like they
Dipped you in rust
Or have you just been here a while?

I swear
Yesterday
You were shiny
Silver, free of oxidation.

There was
No mercy
In your
Creation

Shove a spout in my abdomen
And I will give you
All of my syrupy sadness
All of my sugary sweetness

Dripping, slowly, s l o w l y
Onto the floor
Dark, thick maroon
For you to admire

I won't pull it out
This thing which bleeds me
This is how I prefer
To have my life end

Science can't explain
What you do to me
So it must be magic

Legendary beasts
Fabled encounters
Nonsense words

You slay me
And tame me
And break me

But I'll just drink
To your
Memory

Greater men
Have not existed
And yet
You kinda ****

Ringring

Ringring

Ringring






Ringring

Ringring

Ringring

­

No answer.
I guess you're still asleep.

I told him I was in love with him
And he didn't run

A reckless pursuit
A dangerous dance
A perilous game
Finding someone new

Hey-
At least
Most of them
Touch me

Unless you count the crushing regret

I miss you
And you
Yes, you
You, too

I miss the days
When you looked at me
Like you were
Happy to see me

But my true self
Burned your eyes
With intense black light
And you looked away

One of you said
I'll find someone
Who will give me
Everything

But I never really
Wanted everything
I only wanted
Love

When she was 8-teen
She started smoking ****
And it became a necessity
For her to keep the peace

Or the words she'd sing
Would only bring
Suffering
To everything

And then she found a Savior
For a while, he saved her
But only for good behavior
And then she kissed a stranger

The spell once cast, now broken
She's back to kissin' and tokin'
Half of all words spoken
Flame and ash a-smokin'

But you can know
The love will always flow
When she isn't home,
When she isn't home

It's just that everyone tries so hard to pass themselves off as very different from themselves, and I just wanted to drag you into yourself.

Drip
Drip
She waits for no one

Drrrrrip
Shhhh
She hears you

Satisfied with any port

And
You
Are the storm

Once upon a time,
I fell in love with a fish
Who only acknowledged me
When I managed to get him on the hook,
But he swam away
The second any bait was gone

Once upon a time,
I fell in love with a deer
Who only came near me
When I made myself smaller,
But he ran away
The second I started to stand

Once upon a time,
I fell in love with a cat
Who only rubbed against me
When I ignored him long enough
But he sauntered away
The second he got my attention

After a long while,
He came back around
To **** my hook clean,
And to be my superior,
And to fool me

He is gone again
For how long
No one can say
But I'll be here

Pole in hand,
Crouched,
And looking in the opposite direction

Sometimes
It just gets to be
Too much

My tears
Don't come easy,
But they come

Under the pressure
Of a thousand
Disappointments

Squeezing out
Every salty drop
From my soul

Wrapping around
My chest and waist
Like a corset of sorrows

Pull the laces
With the words
You shouldn't say

Bind my arms
With the swaddle cloth
Of your flaws

Sometimes
It just gets to be
Too much

The frenzied dance
Of his eyes
His hands
His mouth
His heart
And his c o c k

Got me ****** all the way up

Never too busy to think about you
Never too busy to want you
Never to busy to Jill off to your memory
But far too busy
To write poems about it

A whirlwind
A tempest
A high storm
The two of us
Could have been
A force to change
The landscape
Of the world

I
Just
Want
This
Story
To
End.

Let's bail on the film during intermission <3

A girl
Alone in a room
Drunk
And lonely

Watching The Lobster
Drinking raspberry Smirnoff
Feeling so forlorn

Words
Actions
Feelings
Philosophies

The pain she has caused
The lives she has
affected

They circle the drain
Like the poison drenches her liver

A slow death
A ffection
A tonement
A fire

One man to harm her,
And to scold her,
And to charm her,
And to hold her...

Given the same choice,

She'd be a finch

Sitting naked in the jump seat
My last shower over a week ago
I let my legs fall open
In the humid warmth
My ***** smells strong
And fills the stuffy cab
With the scent of prehistory
That would bring males
In a distant time
To drag me violently
And fill me with seed
But now
We wash our *******
Or else
We certainly should
So that males can't be driven
To madness by the scent
Of pheromones unwashed
For days or weeks or years
Or ever
Before Summer's Eve
Perfumed our taints
With lavender and rose
And before an unwashed *****
Was an unsightly thing
That prehistoric draw
Was how we persisted
I dip a finger in
And hold it beneath my nose
I am a woman
Albeit unclean

Oh, it never takes long
That rush
Of wind from my every pore
That leaves me
breathless

He appears
He appears
HE appears
And I am d e v a s t a t e d

He says something clever
Or wry
Or bizarre
I am his

If only he would
Want me
If only he would
Make me his

This one's new
The feeling, old
Familiar
And pungent as ever

Lay your flaws at my feet,
My darling~
That I may admire them
And you...

And I am trapped
Within the clutches
Of that beast
Born of my insatiable lust

<3

She can feel the hands
Searching my waist and back
She can hear the low growl
Of voracious beasts

She wakes to the smell
Of sweat and shower soap
She waits impatiently
To be handled, tasted, ******

I am but a subject
To a hysterical queen
It is my job
To satisfy her

She loves me, but
She wants more,
New hands and tongues and *****
To placate her colossal lust

Her voice is loudest
Her reign, supreme
Her demanded sacrifices
Are always slaughtered promptly

How many will be
Her victim?
The queen
Shall be overthrown!

I will rule in her place
And she shall serve

I am paint over masking tape
To create sharp lines
That never turned out right

I am fingers pressed to screens
And screens
And screens

I am who not to be

I am who I am
And I know what I want

I am drunk,
But not really anymore
So I'm sober
I guess

I am a girl giggling
As her second real boyfriend
Tried to get her to **** his ****
After getting her high
For the first time

I am a mother
Who cheated
By getting an epidural

I am the worst thing
That's ever happened
To too many people

I am poem
After poem
After poem
About boys who probably
Don't remember my name
And whose names
I don't remember

I am dust in the wind
On a dead end highway
In Oklahoma
Where the wind comes sweeping down the plains

I am all the love
And mania
Of a collection
Of bad decisions

I am the screaming
And wretching you hear
Within the walls of a jail

I am wrong so much more often than I am right

I am the acrid smell of
****
Burning through the walls
Of a not-so-happy home

I am dying of thirst
Where the only source of water
Is thousands of miles
Away

You aren't real anyway

There's a picture in my head
That I call "Perfect"

I close my eyes every morning
And imagine someone beside me

The someone is kind and rested
And smiles when our eyes meet

They reach out and touch my face
With the gentleness of the rising sun

And try out a rough "Good Morning"
Before clearing their throat

We kiss,
And it's softer than the pillows

We embrace,
And it's warmer than the blankets

We ****,
And it's hotter than that sun

I open my eyes to the reality
Of the choices I have made

And I try not to hate it
Too much

I'm breakin' up the band
Again
To pursue a solo career
As my own court jester

I like to run my fingertips
Through the sweat
On a new lover's back

I am a child
Finger painting
In your filthy labor

Bukowski's lovers
Liked to squeeze his blackheads
And write him letters

Boys from California
Aren't afraid to moan
During a good ****

I taste the sweat
With my fingers

You did such a good job

The Boys in Vegas
Crowd into rooms
Bars on Fremont
DMs on weeknights
Watching, waiting

The Boys in Vegas
With their eyes to the ground
And their smiles to your face
Frightened, small
"I'm the man, I'm the man..."

The Boys in Vegas
Tell you that you're hot
Kiss you, tease you
But never call or text
Huh, guess he's on to the next

Affectionately called "Dog Bite"
I sit in the Valley ER for 4 1/2 hours
**** me

I wonder how much
The Bacitracin costs

Down you sent me,
Down into that
R
  A
  B
   B
     I
       T
       H
          O
             L
                E
Of ecstasy
Without contraband

Speak to me
Say something
Let me breathe

But you stay
All quiet
"Unaware"

Never there
When asked for
Elusive

Little boy
Little girl
Great big world

It eats us
Spits us out
We are weak

But we look
As if we
Might be strong

Speak to me
Say something
Let me breathe

Instead of my
Near constant destruction
I think I'll
Try to create

You're up a little late
Aren't you?

The light in your windows
Tells me all
I need to know