All your lies have wounded me.

Pour me a glass of wine

What was mine is no longer

"Just married" said the shattered windshield

I jumped then changed my mind

He left and didn't come back.

******
Real
Insane
Pain
Please
Leave
Every
Day

This scares me a lot
  Never had it done
  I rather be in a different position
Than being only 1 legged
Scared urgent requesting guys except receiving you

You finally broke
  me
  how u feel now
  better that I don't have any feeling
   Towards u
  I wonder though like what would be the point
  Of being friends this point
     I wanted to be more
   I guess I was stupid for believing myself it would be
     More 1 day...
      Looking @ you might drive me crazy
      I've helped u too much that's
          The problem

this is me saying
that i don't care how i am
treated, i love you.

weeks ago i was beautiful because you owned me.

tonight i am beautiful because you don't know what you're missing.

tonight i will kiss someone
and you will no longer be the only one who has tasted the liqueur of my lips
or perceived the garden that sleeps around my neck like a jewel.

tonight, another man will sample the variety of decedent wonders
that you took from me
forcefully
crushing
the crystals
and ripping
the satin

tonight
someone more gentle than you
will receive
the glory that i have to bestow
the power and pulsating, vibrating music in my walk
in the sway of my full hips

tonight
you
don't
know
what you're missing.

I'm not sure what to do on these lonesome nights
When you won't notice me, or even acknowledge my very existence
I try to convince myself that you have a logical reason why
But I fail to see it each time I'm able to make any form of contact with you

"Let me know if I'm ever bothering you, I always feel as though I am."
"Nah, that's impossible. You don't annoy nor bother me."

I believe you, I truly do
Up until you resume ignoring me
On these bitter lonesome nights