It takes a strange courage to submit to stasis
a gentle acceptance to admit to accordance
a small release to move with grace.
It takes a surprising effort to allow joy to enter
to reveal my belly with trust for all the world,
to allow my hangdog face to return to the kennel.
I watch many move in cool hues, violets and blues,
the slow step of broken people, crushed by crushes, worn with work
as the common connecting thread, the rope bright red held by toddlers at daycamp so no one gets lost.
Sadness has become a language, a lingo so powerful that crowded rooms have little else to say. Whomever heralds the heaviest woe wins. Misery begets fine company. I've watched friends form from frayed souls that fate has patched together, I have watched lovers born from mourning.
I'm so tired of weeping. I'm not sad anymore.
I want to throw open every pair of crossed arms I see like shutters on locked windows. I seek the bravery to tell the world how happy I truly am and accept it as something other than a defeat- I want to laugh even though it will set me apart.
If I can light up a single room it will be enough. A tiny sun may feel lonely, but if it burns bright the rest will orbit.
Never will I permit the easy current of melancholy to drown me.
No more will I hide from the beauty of my life.