everything has cast its shadow today
as the fire in the sky looked on
doing its thing

all flames and burning
not allowing any eyes to watch
the naked self offering

Don’t cry,
our memories
are only one
reality.

©Ben Ditmars 2014

Don't know what to feel,
Don't know where to go,
Can someone **** me?
Can you please just let me go?

I don't know what to think,
Don't know what to believe is real,
Just sitting in the corner,
Crying my eyes out.

Slowly runs the blade across her arm,
Feels the sting of pain,
Sees the blood flowing down,
Around the wrist and hand,
Intertwining her fingers.

Closed eyes
Smile fading
Heart slowly beating

Breath Deepens
Body Cooling
Next thing you know.....

~Your Dead!~

Not sure about the future
But its better than my past

I wish my life was over
So I could rest in peace

Without all this *******
That keeps happening around me....

I'm Sorry.

It seems only fitting to apologize,
especially when addressing someone
as pure as you.
You make all my
imperfections feel insignificant,
You make me feel so much better
than I really am.

My ugly nature is so strong though,
that the moment I step away from
your beautiful light, the darkness
comes crashing down upon my aura.

Your perfection holds true always-
never will you blame or bring another to
shame, as deserving as they may be of it.
As deserving as I especially may be.

Your sweet essence cleanses mine,
I feel unworthy of your care, and
overwhelmed by your optimism.
How much I wish I could stay pure as you.
You personify the metaphorical angel
of dreams- belief is unnecessary for
heavenly light to shine from you.

I don't know if I'll ever repay your love
but know this- I truly apologize for what
burdens I've placed upon you- I'm learning
to carry my weight, I don't want your
perfection to break.

You ask nothing of me, but I ask it of myself.
How did I come to deserve you?

My life
is made up of
interesting lives.
People that seem
to always be in
motion, doing
and experiencing life
and all that it offers.
I merely sit and observe
from behind the railings,
Yearning to join in,
But having not the courage
That would be needed to
Step away from my life
Into the one I wish I had.