i managed to wake up,
and not think about you.

i was kind of proud,
with myself,
this time,
i'm moving on so fast,
too fast.

this morning,
it doesn't feels like my usual morning,
where i'll be in school,
waiting for you to come.
I'll be looking down my watch,
every tick,
just to make sure that,
i see your face first,
before school starts.

during recess,
it feels different too,
usually,
i'll be searching for your shadows,
but not today.
today,
i did not even bother,
you came or not.

everything just feel so different,
am i moving on too fast?
or is it too slow?

i knew it from the start,
from the first day,
i liked you,
i don't deserve you.

i know,
it was just a crush..

its day 2 my dear,
how are you?

Lets **** again
this fair land, ***** so many times before.
She cannot cry out in pain
as we steal her innocence.
Take it...take what she has to offer,
care not for the ravaged earth you leave behind
while you earn another dollar.
Yeah, she can recover
but not in your lifetime or mine.
But why should I be bothered?
After all she was put here to provide

My south country that we call the Sussex Weald
A place of gentle landscapes of softly rolling hills.
My south country where I grew up and played as a child
Where I learned of nature as I studied life in the wild.
They stand in magestic glory between the land and the rolling sea
Those magestic hills we call the downs
we of the Sussex Weald
Yes, I'm a man of the Sussex Weald, of generations long gone bye
I'm a man of the South Country
And as a south country man I'll die

Baby I’m cool enough in this world of chaos
Absorb all the fists and blows without being morose
Can hide baby the groan of loss the searing painful sigh
Can rise from a breaking fall and stand up with head high.

Baby I still love to believe life is a joyous ride
Where sorrow is inevitable like the coin’s other side
It’s worth trying building a castle even in desert sand
Adorn it with a moment’s dream touch of a loving hand.

Baby I still cry when pass through a darker shade
But know the light is steps away if I go ahead
There’s hope after despair a mend of broken heart
A beginning after every end chance for a new start.

Baby I’m still unscathed through badly scarring burns
Making my way in the face of storms road’s ugly turns
Can surmount my feet the hurdles run the course sprightly
If you baby just lend your heart in the travel stay by me.

Sometimes it’s just fine to look away
Without pain’s twitch a word to say
Pretend it’s nothing that’s all too harsh
Look up from ground to the far up stars.

Sometimes it’s just fine to look away
Hiding the dent the anguish’s sway
Burn the tears with the fire in heart
Look up from the ruins to the sky for a start.

Sometimes it’s just fine to look away
Feel within it’s not your day
Stop listening to the sadness’ tune
Move with the wind a shifting dune.

Know some days are never your day
Though they’ll try to blow you away
Just live them down not drown in them
For on the morrow is written your name.

Trust me with your heart
Mine beats, along with yours
For we are, not Two, but One*





© Amitav (Radiance)

An acrobat of love is she,
who contorts,  sensing
which way he loves to move,
constantly making spirited coos.

I miss you when nights are cold,
While the fire is breathing on my face,
And I can't stand to feel the trace
Of your skin on mine.
I feel so old.

To remove your fingertips,
Bury myself in the glowing embers,
Scorch any trace of you off
My blackened burns.
*I only wish.

The happiest man I see all day
cleans up after us depressed college kids
While we chase jobs that aren't our dreams
And drown ourselves in liquor so we don't feel a thing
While we smoke ciggerates to exhale all the pain
And it really makes me wonder what were doing here if the happiest man I see all I day is only just a janitor.

I once read
That in 7.6 billion years
The sun
Having reached its maximum size
Will shine 3,000 times brighter
Than it does now
I have always wondered
How it is possible
To know such a thing
When 100 years
Is beyond a lifetime
How we could possibly
Look so far into the future
When now seems like an eternity
And tomorrow is miles away
How can we embrace the moment
When we are constantly being told to plan ahead
And what's the point
Of waiting 7.6 billion years
When the sun is already
Shining
And the moon
Already loves her?