I know it's hard to touch the clouds
when memories
hold you down
I know you cry a lot inside
when no one is
around
I know it is hard to wake up
sometimes
when breathing cuts so deep.

and the birds, they sing
but
you cannot hear
and the sun, it shines
but
you cannot see
and there's a lot of warmth around
but
you cannot feel.

I know it feels so hard
to live
with so many scars

but

light will shine and you will
see
and birds will sing and
you will hear

It's just a dark path
you have to walk
and I will be there
to walk along
don't hold your breath
don't give up yet
just
keep your hope
and you'll find one day
that you can fly again
for you deserve
the highest clouds
the purest air
the deepest love.

and I'll be here for you,
you, dear soul,
the sweetest lyric
of them all.

Dear You

I wanted to write and tell you all the things I think you should know.
I wanted to tell you that.. you are amazing and I love your words.
Every comma, every consonant, every vowel, every **** syllable.
I feel your heart pour onto the page and it makes me hold my breath.
And pray.
Because .. even the angels need to know what you write, well, that's what they should be preaching.

And I know that times are hard for you, and I feel that too. I know just a little of how that feels. It's not quite the same but, I have anxiety and I worry a lot and I always think I am going to die and my heart races and the world is just too big and it's too loud and tries to eat me alive... and...  
I wish I was invisible.
Maybe that is nothing like the things you face. But you are not alone and I know you are brave. Braver than me... is braver a word? braver.. braver.. more brave, bravest?
Any way... the thing is ...  I will be here should you need me, you just call out my name and you know where ever I am, I'll come running... wait a minute... that's actually a song... I'm quoting some song lyrics to you.. yeah... this is why I don't actually go out much, and probably why I am single..
Okay, I know I am messing all of this up so, I just want to tell you, before I ruin everything.. you are wonderful. You are brave and courageous. You have a soul that I can feel through your words and I think it is beautiful. You are a waterfall of wondrous things. And I hope I can tell you that, I just want you to be my friend...
And if you say yes, that would make two.

Okay I hafta go
Just don't stop writing okay... never stop being wonderful.
Lots of Love
Me
**

You can hear me reading this here...
https://soundcloud.com/rachael-435397529

Probably quite dreadful but I tried :o)

We see our own truths
Two, extremely different views
Thee from me
Allowing us to broaden our minds
Finding gold
The purest kind

You
You helped me to find
Sparkling treasure
Behind my broken burdened heart

You counger magic within
Flowing up and out
Paying it forward

You have enabled me to see
What I never have before
In such an explicit way
Wilder days for me
and you
Maybe
Lovely lady

Follow the beauty of your spirit
For what I see in you is truely magnificant
I see enchanting magical rhythm
Moving slowly like a perfect creature

She thinks I am a preacher
But I am just trying to reach her
To help her to see the distinct features
Of the perfect creature

Your like a beautiful white horse
Standing proud
Stunning, shining white
From your inner soul
Dark brown, intense eyes
Twinkling in the light

The bright
Blue skys
Behind
Its a mesmerising
Sight

Let me show you what I see
Like you have shown me
Found the gold
From my captivating Queen

Despose of me please
Sweet Queen
I am indestructable with thee
Open the gates and see

Forth we go and into the realm
We create
The realm, so beautiful you see
It frightens me

I wish for one more second
I wish for one more minute
I wish for one more hour
I wish for one more night

How I long to hold you
Look at all of you
Devour you intensely
So immensely
I look to you; into you
You come
Its so much fun looking into you

Fizzing inside
Fasinating mind
Inspiring find

The colours you paint
Pure art you are

The flowers
You decorate
Trickling lightly over every part
I am consumed by your art
Sweetheart

Going through
Into the lagoons
With you
I am in your trance
My insides
They dance

You are at the end of my fingertips
yet your heart so far away,
I  can't ask you to keep me warm
on nights when icicles stab my soul.

Dreaming daily
though I know
the song you sing
is  not for my ears to hear,
the stars you love
are not for my eyes to see.

The wind whispers your name
through the pores of my skin,
loneliness and pain getting greater everyday.
The sky is falling over me again
and you can't see my despair.
Weak, collapsing,
looking  for your strings to ease the fall
and at the end of my fingertips
there's just a cold, quiet picture
haunting me whole.

I look for you and I know
that it is not in heavens
nor in hell
where I want to find you
but
on this Earth
walking
next to me.
In vain I look
my heart will once more die in silence
cause the sky is falling over me again
but you are not here
and it's not for me the song you sing.