And here we are
the end.

Five years running
and nothing to show

except the slowed
platonic love

and tired
texts

and an absence
of what once was

Except you don't know
do you

know that I'm
leaving us

know that I'm
panicked

into wondering
if I'm behind in
people

experiencing people

I feel I'm at a loss
with you

because we met each other
too soon

and now I'm just pointed bones

and you are the sun

and I'm greedy
for still wanting a piece of you

But I am burnt

The End.

green is the color of evil in your eyes
green was your mind when you touched another's ***
green is the color of my mother's envy
green is the color of my disgust.

they say green is the color of a brand new start
"green means go"
"green means life."

now i don't know what green stands for anymore.

my heart is undeserving
of your love for me
my soul it's dark with stories
this world can never hear.

it's not that I don't like you
it's not that I don't care
but I love you so, I can't hurt you.
So I am staying away.

your life's so multicolored
your laugh is so contagious
to me you are so precious
do me a favor, please stay away.

everything I touch I hurt
everyone I love are broken
i don't want you to be one of them
so I will love you from afar.

you do not really have to worry
i've been on this journey alone
i've been okay so i can promise
i will be fine, on my own.

my heart's so undeserving
of your love for me.
you are my everything
so do me favor, please stay away.

I’m getting tired of saying

I’m fine

I don’t want to talk to people to lie

I’m fine

I don’t want to pretend in meetings

I’m fine

I can’t take time off to lie to myself

I’m fine