I thought of you today
who were you today

I wonder what you were like

I wonder if you were running your hands through another woman’s hair

In the same moment that

Another man was running his through mine

I was so close to getting out of bed.
I was so close
but so much inside of my head burns me to stay buried
and to never walk into the daylight again.
My skin will turn to ash if I rise to the sunlight
that is tainted with him and whatever strange woman he plans to see this day
he gets off on how he tears me and my sweetness limb from limb until I’m nothing but a body with empty eyes that forgets what love is supposed to feel like
a I’ll search for it forever and In all of the seas and it will float past me
I’ll be searching for the wrong things because the one that loves me is to afraid to love me back.
this is why I crumble at the knees the oceans flood my eyes and pour down delicate skin. Priceless skin that I’ve been brainwashed to believing has a value a value less then my lovers.
but my skin is translucent kissed by angels and made by stardust. you can see right through me my intentions are clear I am a direct being.
You wouldn’t know West from East you are a confused man. You think you can just replace me with a average girl you say you want average but your eyes scream extraordinary when you look at me. I’m at a crossroad I’m not sure if my words give me strength or make me weak.
I can’t hold my tongue

You bashed on the chest my heart was enclosed in
You bashed on my chest
With roaring fist of fury
Engulfed in self rage and broke every rib
You bashed on my chest that protected my heart
You bashed on my chest until my heart was completely exposed
Then you threw Your roaring fists down once more
You bashed into my chest that my heart was enclosed in till I had nothing left
And you still aren’t happy.
You broke every rib
You still aren’t happy
You slammed Your roaring fist against my exposed heart until blood vessels were popped and I was broken, bleeding out and
YOU STILL ARENT HAPPY
You still hate yourself
You still hate me
Now we’re both bleeding.
No one is happy here
You bashed on the chest my heart was enclosed in
And now I’m nothing but a body
Living in motions
But I lost all emotions
When you and Your ****** fists got up and left me bleeding
What makes you happy?