You are an aggressive drunk.
I forgive you, over and over again.
I make excuses for you over and over again.
I’m still here.

When it comes to this, to alcohol,
You do not care and do not have an ounce of self control.
You’re given an inch and take several miles.
It's pathetic.

It’s a turn off.
The BIGGEST turn off.
You promised to keep me safe.
This doesn't feel ******* safe.


Is this the abusive marriage were preparing for?
It this the type of husband you’ll be?
Is this the type of father you’ll be?
Did I settle?

Falling in love with the thought of falling in love
And falling into mistrust embodied in blue eyes
And a cheap smile.

My gullible self told you to take care cause not a lot of people had been here,
In this place in my heart and you held me close,
...I trusted you.

All of it.
Stupid girl.

I lost all of my angels for your phantom.
If I let you go I’ll be alone.

But I’m already alone when I’m here.
With you.