I never knew
What life held
Until I met you
Heaven is closer

I thought I was lonely
Then you came along
I fell for you only
Heaven is closer

Angels are flying
All around us
I hear love sighing
Heaven is closer

So all we ever do
Is feel the magic
Because being with you
Heaven is closer

because sadness keeps me awake
when i should be asleep
i couldnt close my eyes
to see a crystal clear picture of what it would be like
when i held on to that burning heap

didnt know that burning heap was hotter
than the coals my feet would touch when something was slaughtered
over something that i didnt quite understand
which melted my heart to keep sobbing
into porcelain glasses that were precious
like my heart that kept throbbing

tears fall down like the window pane sound
when someone would come home
dreaming and thinking if i was ever gonna be
with someone or will i be left all alone?

chasing dreams was the reality of life
didnt know it would tire you so much
until it eats you up
like you were the last carrot on the table
which no one else wanted

but it didnt look like that
it was more than sounding flat,
or looking super fat,
more than how long you sat,
or if you looked like a rat.
but what was inside
that distinguished
who you are
and no one else would dictate that.

so much things may slap you in the face real hard
like a giants nest hitting the illegal settlers cage
until it crashes down to pieces
never gonna be put back together in its original place
but it had its chance to reinvent itself

go back up
go back up
stand on both feet up
and up up up
you are bound for something greater than the road's bump

I'll lie and say I don't care
but I do, I care so much it feels as though
my chest will explode with the pain of it.

Words cannot explain the depths of my misery that I bare inside, for all the times I did you wrong.
You are the one person who was and is ALWAYS there for me, your PERFECT in every way, I love you so hard I would die for you?
Why do I question such acts of loyalty?
I do not understand, please, I'm so mentally challenged when it comes to you.
Am I that selfish, that I won't change my life for you, put you first?
When I know by ******* you deserve so much more!
I can't stress the word deserve enough!
If all the men in this world treated you like a KING, you would still deserve more.
You changed me, saved from my own self, you showed me TRUE love.
I know I love you, but I dont know if I am good enough for you, I am lowly & this is where I feel like i'm never good enough, but it hurts me when I hurt you by not trying.
PLEASE, I LOVE YOU & even until this day I never questioned my love for you, not ONCE in my life, I swear on that.
Even when I barely knew you.
So I will try, I will fight, I will strive to keep you happy but just know I am not perfect & just know all I want is your HAPPINESS!
I did you wrong, many times before & hate myself for it, I promise!
But just know, no matter what, I will never ever hate you.
On the day I die, before it & forever after I...WILL... ALWAYS... LOVE...YOU & will never & I mean EVER, no matter if I try my absolute hardest, forget you.
I Love You & that will forever stay, just like the world's beautifulest stain you left on my heart.
I'm sorry I did you wrong & I'm sorry for anything I do wrong in the future, but I will never leave, I will indefinitely fight for you & I.