Do you ever feel so trapped in a world that you so desperately try to escape from?
Do you ever feel like no matter what you do, the outcome will always turn out bad?
Do you ever feel the words that come out of others mouths will always be negative?
Do you ever feel that you will never be able to live your own life because people are too busy controlling your every move and action?
Every thing I do is me trying to do what I want to do, yet doing what I want to do is the devils works, me being rebellious, me being inconsiderate, me being irresponsible, me not thinking.
At time I start to think about the words people say, I let it get to me, I sit and ponder on it, until I think about it, then I realize that this is my life, my story, and if I continue to sit here and let people tell me how to live my life and what paths to take, I will get no where I will always think what if and live in a bowl of regret soup.
I try to live a life with a shield over my body and heart, I don't try to show people the real me afraid of being hurt, yet I don't want to live in a mask because I don't show people who I really am.
Any ounce of presenting my true colors to the world is fail in the moral conduct of the world, if you show people who you really are, they will never accept you.
As time has grown and my thoughts have changed I have seen that when you show people who you really are and can be, that right there is everything, people love you SOOO much more when you just be yourself and aren't afraid to just show the true, magnificent, and benevolent colors that hide within you when you don't show who you can really be.
It's crazy how the people you used to trust the most with everything playing so well to be the enemy in disguise, now it's like whatever you say, may and will be used against you.