I need help but I don't want it
and I can't breach that barrier
because I love myself
and hate myself
and love hating me.

You're star studded and glowing bright
I'm sinking dark and holding tight
you have no cares and float in bliss
I can't sigh without a hiss.

I'm holding my soul inside, to keep it intact
and safe as mum taught me,
it holds its purity while my body
self destructs.

a righteous contradiction
I'll hold your interest long
enough to captivate your soul.

My home is in the dark
the light will not abide
my home is stark and white
the world is standing by

I need somewhere to roam
where my dark thoughts can be
without judgement.

No one seems to get my humour,
apparently my suicidal thoughts
aren't funny

My cynicism has seeped into my veins
and now my heart beats to its awful cadence
and I've found comfort in its crude caress

Give me hope and home
a place to call my own
a cliche that is only mine
a brief escape from endless time

I can't stand your world nor
can I hold my clumsy limbs
upright on its surface.