I only smoke when I'm stressed,
So basically all the time.

But I'll never outrun these demons
As long as the dead are on my mind.

Yet somehow its too much to ask of anyone,
If they'll just be a friend of mine.

I question
My very own gut, my very own center, my very own vision
It feels like a splinter

I want it out, I can not swallow, I have no grip
My rib cage, hallow

Button up the idea behind my feelings for you
I lack motivation to secure a dying dream
I lack thirst for the adventure
I lack patience for this frightful endeavor

You made it this way
I picked the book, but you keep flipping the page
I am hooked somewhere in the beginning
Ground beneath me still spinning
Round, and round the clock I go
Numbers press on 'til you come home

and for you, today, my daily thought
if I may

such are the sparkling eyes that entice
such are the sculpted lips I kiss
such are the arms to caress at night
such are my dreams, my morning bliss

these daydreams, are all about you
curling my hair, anticipations of you
this tingling I have, is because of you
the warmth I feel, is because I LOVE
YOU

I asked the lord for one more day
as I watch you in silence, so beautiful
after all its valentines day
the softness of your skin, still tingles me
the sculpture of your face, the lines perfect
this journey I asked you to take with me
has been everthing I envsion it would be
our life together filled with fullness
the laughter and sorrow, together we shared
no second guess, when I asked for your hand
and your eyes said it all, your kiss affirmed
its twilight now, I always thought I'd go first
the lord needs his angels forever on earth
but the special ones, He needs with Him
so one last kiss and I'll send you on your way
just remember, everyday without you
will be my valentines day