a pitter, patter of my feet on gravel of the drive way you once stood.
no matter what you name can not be shook, your smile that shines, and
memories that fade, for you will never be forgotten. love and happiness that
I wish to bring, but you are far to gone, for me to reach... We love you
and everything you left behind... joy to you in you sleep, hope you rest
in peace.

I'm obsessed In the learning of this culture. The one of spirits, demons, gods, and angels. The one of beauty and standards, of secrets and ruins. The stories of cats, and mice, and how their stories met. From the dragons and silk, that wrapped around the bodies of your women, to the hope, and destruction that you brought, I am in love with your culture.

I haven't said this in a long time, I'm sorry, I'm sorry that I said those things I lied before, I lied and said I loved you, but I don't really love you do I? I'm infatuated with the thought of you, how perfect you are, how you always get your way, I've always envied you and that's why I thought I loved you... But now I know I don't until it hits the end of the tick of the last tick on the clock I will always fell deeply infatuated with you.

As I lay on the ground
Looking up at your smiling face
I can see the lie in your eyes
You're denying the truth
And leaving me in the dirt
Standing over my broken body
Watching my pain and hurt
Multiple with every comment
And ***** look
You put me down on this ***** ground
And lost love was all it took
I'm ashamed to say that I'd take you back
I'd let you pull me up into your arms
Cause without you I'm just a heart attack
Waiting to happen
Just broken pieces and shattered parts
Waiting for you to put me back together

Waiting for you to realize what you've done

Waiting for you to remember me

Waiting for your love


*Waiting for you

I want you to smile, not those fake smiles that you give in pictures, but the ones where a joke catches you off guard and you laugh normally, when you dont have a serious undertone, almost if you just want to get rid of me, cause maybe if you smiled... I could to, if i dont see your smile I beg for it, I plead with insults and jokes for even the hint of your smile, I even ask for it... I love you more and more as the days go by, but as I realize I say it less and less...

I didnt paint on a smile or bright blue eyes today
I left my paint in my room, where I wept
I lost my passion to do anything
i´d **** for that feeling
to not feel
at all
:)