Meeting you was fate
Remaining friends was a choice
I'd stare and speak to you everyday

But I've done not enough
to even sit and drink alone and think
of you on lonely days

What's a girl gotta do
for you
to stay?

'Cause it was beyond my control
to even fall
in love with you in every way

What's a girl gotta do
to stay
for you?

Oh what a place of hope and of no pain
Perfect skies with no rain
Of endless happiness
No tears or even darkness

For nothing loved is ever lost, broken or sad
I am happy here, knowing that I made you glad
I will still remember in the lifetime we had
Doing life together, embracing both the good and bad

Though I could live and love in many past lives
Yet you were the only one I love and is truly mine
I will hold you dearly not only in our earthly life,
But also here in the afterlife

I’ll be watching you from a distance
Still loving you so relentless
Being with you in every instance
Hoping you’ll feel my love and presence

‘Til I wait for you here in paradise
Seek my shining angel light
Though I may have been taken away from you that night
God brought me home, resting by his side

sometimes you fall, but only silently
sometimes you break, but really gently and quietly
sometimes it aches, but momentarily
sometimes you wake up finally when life was frozen and hard to breathe
oh sometimes it takes your all, but not all is for nothing

sometimes I think I was born backwards
sometimes i think on sitting trains of things from yesterday
sometimes it takes, sadness to know happiness
sometimes it takes, bitterness to know sweetness
oh sometimes it takes your all, but not all is for nothing

kiss me, in or under a Ferris wheel, swing, swing,
make my mind spin round and round in circle like carousels

make out 'til my heart loses count and it performs countless cartwheels
i'd run out of words, they be tr-trip-tripping on treadmills
and when i'm with them,

i s-st-stutter, don't even wanna fall for another other
don't even know if i'm standing still,
catch me and i'll catch him 'til
i'll fall head over heels for them
<3

you are my heaven
but here on earth
you love me like i'm of well worth
you are so encouraging
when giving compliments
it makes me feel feminine

"you are beauty
you are depth
love me like it's your first breath
i feel so lucky
you fill my heart's content
you are my calm energy"

singing to make your voice dance
and dance to make your body sing
crying a happy-teary painting,
a more silent-loud kind of poetry-painting that speaks

if eyes could tell stories
share it to me, my hand will be well in cheek
‘cause dreaming our life would be all magic

if skies were like warm sheets
i’d fall through the clouds
'cause laying with you is all I need

i know you like
the back of my hand
but i don't like
wasted time i can't get back
i ain't f*cking around
no, i’m not getting any younger

i know i’d be lying,
twiddling them thumbs
of me just writing
another dumb poem
if you move aside
yeah, i promise to move forward

but why does it have to be subliminal
the messages you left, i read them all

and just like a toy, it was shiny and new
so luminous, yet dangerous,
you were just a boy, for all i knew

falling as the stars fall
burning as they do
shining like that, giving their all
that’s my love for you

The world needs more women
To do the hard and holy things
We got enough women
To know how to do their face

'Cause the world we live in
Depends on real women
'And lil' women, be thinking,
To sleep is what keeps 'em pretty, but they'll age

I ain't preaching
But the Lord can be giving
Real women
Yes I still believe in
the women
Can I get an amen
For us women

i could spell out your name with Christmas leaves
‘cause we danced like forever with them falling
and when winter came around,
we were in a snow globe moment
you blew a cold puff of air
i said to kiss me for real
in the gingerbread house that we built for ourselves

Laid a path, only for you to leave
Won my heart, only for you to bleed
I saw blood through your sleeve

Set a trap, watching you fall in
Grabbed a mirror, only to catch you starin’
If love was a sin, i’d be willing

To bring a knife to a gun fight
Bow and arrow, instead of missiles
If the ****** weapon was me
It’ll prove love can be guilty
To break you out yet still keep you alive
Your getaway ride would be a tandem bike
If your alibi was me
It’ll still prove love can be guilty.

To think about,
What lets me down
Don’t want the cycle to repeat
Oh I can’t go back in time now
To write my past down,
I fix what I’ve been destined to speak

i tell myself forgive yourself for the things you never became
i saw it coming, we were different, and i couldn't make you change
it was just a catch-and-release for you
it hurts to think it through
and even though i'm full of wounds,
i'll still be standing

your tortured touch
had torched my love
you poked the fun
i took the cut
no game of luck
we're scorched by sun
you poured for one
no cure, we're scarred
no score for us
you pulled the plug
you know we're done.

ang Kulay ay atin
Na kahit anong tanong
Kaibigan natin

Passed by more people
Than she ever helped
Seen by two of her pupil,
Couldn’t really be felt
Used to be close and to fill what is near, closing
All is known for mirrored things
Except for what she dealt
She needs to put her hand works to sleep
Rest easy on the mind, ‘til then she repeats
A masterpiece while time progresses, sings
She is mantelpiece for flowers to be thrown under her

i'm not gonna stop loving us,
to be with you,
and in your arms
i fixed your broken heart

in every corner of my sky
you make constellations die

in every write, my hands scribe
the playful darkness of one's mind

oh i ask God
if I could
see the ending of this life
‘cause i'm convinced the future lies

in every ocean it is trying
to make peace with the fire

in every picture i've memorised
you still make my heart cry

oh i ask God
if He could
turn every song into smiles
'cause letting you go hurts

-A Novel by me

I know it that you’re into me
That crush of yours don’t fade so please
Either say how you feel and mess it up
or say nothing and let it mess you up instead of me
‘Cause you can’t leave things unsaid
Say it for the sake of peace

From sharing every minute detail of your life with one another
To being unaware of one’s milestones
Best friends grew apart
Yeah we deserve someone
Who believes they're too important to lose

i want all my dreams
to be about you
when I sleep
i'm livin' for you,

'cause when I'm with you
i'm winnin' at life
even before my past life
i look forward to time with you

traced along paths
the map i followed to
was steps to your heart
drawn with permanent marks

he found gold in me
worth the keeper
worth keeping
or
did he find something
that's cheaper
that's chipping

you survived too many storms to be bothered by raindrops.

it’s make or break
higher than the stakes
trial and error is what it takes
to get further day by day

girls are like roses
they can breathe
through the cracks
without relapse

girls can bloom and thorn
choose to bud than to mourn
inner power, flower not torn
their beauty not yet born

girls can dance through
snow storms and rainy season
even they’ll put the fire in you
or freeze you then

girls will fall at your feet
when you drop to pick up
them roses
just to please them

we try to find the missing, puzzle piece
to fit into our lives,
but it ends up with what they took,
not what was missing
it was in the form of some memory
of you away with them,
locked in their brain, bottled deep within,
a puzzled piece, i am
to then go and find myself a new place
the try was never to complete the puzzle
but another try was made in order to find another,
both of you not in the exact shape - but finally the perfect fit to complete each other

i love love
painful love
tender love
every bit of your love
love that stains
love that hurts
love that heals
love that you remember forever
and love that makes you forget
the only real truth in life
and reason being here

i bought my last pack of 24 candles
‘cause who’d forget to blow their birth years away
then realised i need one extra candle
for being 25..
but who’s keeping count?
my twenties are like entering a roundabout
‘til you exit the right way out
‘cause if you’re wondering
i’m twenty something,
and i stopped counting

Ice hearts thaws
Freeze 'tll it falls
Shot 9 holes
All eyes in awe

Colours are ours
Sharing a 64 pack of crayons
Is this the Last Sun?
Cooler rays on ocean corals run

Wasn't set for September
Uh-oh October’s already comin' over?
How is it nearly November?
Did you decide for December?
What yo jammin’ to in January?
I'm probably not free in February

Everybody’s feared to die
But it’s the way to heaven
What is it like inside my mind?
It’s a living hell
How is that a happy ending?
The pressure feels like I'm paralysed
Many road blocks and dead ends
But one thing that I go by in this life
Is living your mark, not a question,
But a dash.

i love the kind of love
when you love out loud
when he loves her openly, purely and proud

one for the taking
that love is kinda wild
never heart-breaking
that love is in the air
never suffocating

when the sudden laughter as we kiss
no better taste than his
laughter in my mouth
we keep these learning places and lean into loving spaces

dream me the world
something new every night
she asked for that magic
and to never lose the fight
asked him to move in with her, that is in her heart
so that he can choose to love her
every day

although it was encompassing,
as much as the love was deafening, quickening, maddening and blinding
he realised he liked her
while she loved him

lost in thoughts
since your kiss was a bliss
we took the risk
and left afloat,
adrift in a new abyss

lost in your eyes
led to this constance
by your lips
was fed by lies
thrifting on old tricks

found my twin flame
but burnt from the hurt
oh how i wish i didn’t chase
you would have learnt (you never learn)
why i came and stayed (from your mistakes)

lost for words
here and now is all
i know your heart is stuck
to grow and mature
it pains me that you’re still unsure
don’t leave this lonely heart
‘cause here and now is
all we know
all i know

but why'd you have to go
light the fire within my soul?
i try to convince myself
why'd i need to let you go

i wanna swim in your eyes and nap in your soul.

Ikaw ang kislap
Sa gabing madilim
Nagbibigay liwanag
Sa tuwing ika'y kapiling
Oh isang hiling
Sa maliwanag na ningning
Ng mga bituin
Na ika'y makapiling
Sa mga bawat lambing