what’s more to life than to feel loved?
what’s more to a partner than his or her hug?
searching for more won’t make you feel satisfied,
when being content with what you already have
in your present life.

you survived too many storms to be bothered by raindrops.

Winter says why can't I bloom just the same?
Winter feels the rain
just as heavy as a window pane does
Winter waited to be a stemmed rose

Winter had the courage to turn into spring
Winter had succulent lips and smooth edged rims
so drunk on the memory
Winter tasted bittersweet

Ikaw ang kislap
Sa gabing madilim
Nagbibigay liwanag
Sa tuwing ika'y kapiling
Oh isang hiling
Sa maliwanag na ningning
Ng mga bituin
Na ika'y makapiling
Sa mga bawat lambing

you are never able to forget anyone,
you've been with,
and you can never replace anyone,
what is lost is lost.

getting far from the living
yet afraid from my beginnings
i’d like to see myself walk in -
to the future and give a toast to freedom
i know it’s a moment to take in
is this what i was waiting for?

i let it out, but it’s amusing to you
your hope is wanting to gift me to you
i know my faith is strong,
but i’m weak then, allowing myself to -
count back your mistakes,
recount the times and ways i got played
i guess it’s what i paid for

if eyes could tell stories
share it to me, my hand will be well in cheek
‘cause dreaming our life would be all magic

if skies were like warm sheets
i’d fall through the clouds
'cause laying with you is all I need

i know you like
the back of my hand
but i don't like
wasted time i can't get back
i ain't f*cking around
no, i’m not getting any younger

i know i’d be lying,
twiddling them thumbs
of me just writing
another dumb poem
if you move aside
yeah, i promise to move forward

but why does it have to be subliminal
the messages you left, i read them all

and just like a toy, it was shiny and new
so luminous, yet dangerous,
you were just a boy, for all i knew

falling as the stars fall
burning as they do
shining like that, giving their all
that’s my love for you

i tend to believe that outside things just can't be controlled
i refuse to let temporary people touch my mind, body and soul
i tend to believe that someone will swoop in just to show
but God is saving me for someone special and raw

To think about,
What lets me down
Don’t want the cycle to repeat
Oh I can’t go back in time now
To write my past down,
I fix what I’ve been destined to speak

i want all my dreams
to be about you
when I sleep
i'm livin' for you,

'cause when I'm with you
i'm winnin' at life
even before my past life
i look forward to time with you

traced along paths
the map i followed to
was steps to your heart
drawn with permanent marks

i tell myself forgive yourself for the things you never became
i saw it coming, we were different, and i couldn't make you change
it was just a catch-and-release for you
it hurts to think it through
and even though i'm full of wounds,
i'll still be standing

lost in thoughts
since your kiss was a bliss
we took the risk
and left afloat,
adrift in a new abyss

lost in your eyes
led to this constance
by your lips
was fed by lies
thrifting on old tricks

found my twin flame
but burnt from the hurt
oh how i wish i didn’t chase
you would have learnt (you never learn)
why i came and stayed (from your mistakes)

lost for words
here and now is all
i know your heart is stuck
to grow and mature
it pains me that you’re still unsure
don’t leave this lonely heart
‘cause here and now is
all we know
all i know

but why'd you have to go
light the fire within my soul?
i try to convince myself
why'd i need to let you go

sometimes you fall, but only silently
sometimes you break, but really gently and quietly
sometimes it aches, but momentarily
sometimes you wake up finally when life was frozen and hard to breathe
oh sometimes it takes your all, but not all is for nothing

sometimes I think I was born backwards
sometimes i think on sitting trains of things from yesterday
sometimes it takes, sadness to know happiness
sometimes it takes, bitterness to know sweetness
oh sometimes it takes your all, but not all is for nothing

your tortured touch
had torched my love
you poked the fun
i took the cut
no game of luck
we're scorched by sun
you poured for one
no cure, we're scarred
no score for us
you pulled the plug
you know we're done.

kiss me, in or under a Ferris wheel, swing, swing,
make my mind spin round and round in circle like carousels
make out 'til my heart loses count and it performs countless cartwheels
i'd run out of words, they be tr-trip-tripping on treadmills
and when i'm with them,
i s-st-stutter, don't even wanna fall for another other
don't even know if i'm standing still,
catch me and i'll catch him 'til
i'll fall head over heels for them
<3

Make those core memories
Create that opportunity
Forge a path for yourself
Sky rocket those dreams of yours, little one

From sharing every minute detail of your life with one another
To being unaware of one’s milestones
Best friends grew apart
Yeah we deserve someone
Who believes they're too important to lose

Meeting you was fate
Remaining friends was a choice
I'd stare and speak to you everyday

But I've done not enough
to even sit and drink alone and think
of you on lonely days

What's a girl gotta do
for you
to stay?

'Cause it was beyond my control
to even fall
in love with you in every way

What's a girl gotta do
to stay
for you?

I know it that you’re into me
That crush of yours don’t fade so please
Either say how you feel and mess it up
or say nothing and let it mess you up instead of me
‘Cause you can’t leave things unsaid
Say it for the sake of peace

i love the kind of love
when you love out loud
when he loves her openly, purely and proud

one for the taking
that love is kinda wild
never heart-breaking
that love is in the air
never suffocating

when the sudden laughter as we kiss
no better taste than his
laughter in my mouth
we keep these learning places and lean into loving spaces

dream me the world
something new every night
she asked for that magic
and to never lose the fight
asked him to move in with her, that is in her heart
so that he can choose to love her
every day

although it was encompassing,
as much as the love was deafening, quickening, maddening and blinding
he realised he liked her
while she loved him

girls are like roses
they can breathe
through the cracks
without relapse

girls can bloom and thorn
choose to bud than to mourn
inner power, flower not torn
their beauty not yet born

girls can dance through
snow storms and rainy season
even they’ll put the fire in you
or freeze you then

girls will fall at your feet
when you drop to pick up
them roses
just to please them

It could be
So romantic
To sail the
Whole Atlantic, with you
We can just
forget about the world,
And explore
that mind of yours

We could run
Away to somewhere beautiful
But I want
To stay
And explore that mind of yours
Forget where we belong,
Forgive me if i'm still young

I could ride
the waves of The Titanic
By your side always, but
Love is so tragic.
'Cause you'd say "just forget about me girl,
Go perform that life of yours"

But when I say, 'Take me away"
I play
the acoustic
of music,
'Cause you are the bittersweet notes all translucent
Fingers know it so fluent
All the things that used to hurt,
don't anymore
When you are my world, and I am yours

it's with you,
that i don’t wanna ruin
a beautiful and good thing
‘cause we started off
at the right turn
and it’s become like a slow burn,
it’s got me overthinking
or could be just me without thinking,
i gave in to a new sensation
now i’m just a fool to rush in
to the passion that can never see me leaving,
some sprint for just a fling
others wait for the one to buy a ring
i'd say, it's with you,
you're the one in my life that's been missing
unlike me, i'd come back for that one last song to sing
but you stayed like the first sunray
that touches and misses one’s skin
and as the first message that wakes the morning
i say a little prayer, kneeling
for nothing more than to ask when can i
feel a thousand more feelings with you

i'm not gonna stop loving us,
to be with you,
and in your arms
i fixed your broken heart

i could spell out your name with Christmas leaves
‘cause we danced like forever with them falling
and when winter came around,
we were in a snow globe moment
you blew a cold puff of air
i said to kiss me for real
in the gingerbread house that we built for ourselves

i wanna swim in your eyes and nap in your soul.

you are my heaven
but here on earth
you love me like i'm of well worth
you are so encouraging
when giving compliments
it makes me feel feminine

"you are beauty
you are depth
love me like it's your first breath
i feel so lucky
you fill my heart's content
you are my calm energy"

reality checked in
can’t really be ahead to think
when you’re on my skin
from letting you in,
to letting you go
you were never really there in the end,
through thick and thin

now i don't want it die
like the flight of butterfly
wings in the pit of my stomach
but i don’t wanna ask and say,
"why you’re moving away"
but i do,
"still love you"
it makes me sigh
my neck was your sky,
wish i knew how not to-
put it like how you
did with the weight of words do
they usually hit
like a tonne of bricks
forget that purple stain hurt from those lips
i’d still forgive, still want you on my skin after everything
'cause the clouded thought of you counts back 4, 3, 2,
"i still love you"

we try to find the missing, puzzle piece
to fit into our lives,
but it ends up with what they took,
not what was missing
it was in the form of some memory
of you away with them,
locked in their brain, bottled deep within,
a puzzled piece, i am
to then go and find myself a new place
the try was never to complete the puzzle
but another try was made in order to find another,
both of you not in the exact shape - but finally the perfect fit to complete each other

in every corner of my sky
you make constellations die

in every write, my hands scribe
the playful darkness of one's mind

oh i ask God
if I could
see the ending of this life
‘cause i'm convinced the future lies

in every ocean it is trying
to make peace with the fire

in every picture i've memorised
you still make my heart cry

oh i ask God
if He could
turn every song into smiles
'cause letting you go hurts

i love love
painful love
tender love
every bit of your love
love that stains
love that hurts
love that heals
love that you remember forever
and love that makes you forget
the only real truth in life
and reason being here

you are shining bright
that you dim my light
so why can't we take turns like the sun and moon?
you have too much pride
blinded by your light
(did) that you forget those still in the dark gloom

in this velvety sky
you can paint the stars
while i write the day
in this city skyline
you can shine your own lights
while i beam sun rays
oh, when i rise
i still humble to set
just like sisters, sisters by orbit

take turns with your brightness
don't forget those in darkness
take turns with your brightness
don't forget those in darkness

i bought my last pack of 24 candles
‘cause who’d forget to blow their birth years away
then realised i need one extra candle
for being 25..
but who’s keeping count?
my twenties are like entering a roundabout
‘til you exit the right way out
‘cause if you’re wondering
i’m twenty something,
and i stopped counting

-A Novel by me

Wasn't set for September
Uh-oh October’s already comin' over?
How is it nearly November?
Did you decide for December?
What yo jammin’ to in January?
I'm probably not free in February

Passed by more people
Than she ever helped
Seen by two of her pupil,
Couldn’t really be felt
Used to be close and to fill what is near, closing
All is known for mirrored things
Except for what she dealt
She needs to put her hand works to sleep
Rest easy on the mind, ‘til then she repeats
A masterpiece while time progresses, sings
She is mantelpiece for flowers to be thrown under her

ang Kulay ay atin
Na kahit anong tanong
Kaibigan natin

Ice hearts thaws
Freeze 'tll it falls
Shot 9 holes
All eyes in awe

Colours are ours
Sharing a 64 pack of crayons
Is this the Last Sun?
Cooler rays on ocean corals run

singing to make your voice dance
and dance to make your body sing
crying a happy-teary painting,
a more silent-loud kind of poetry-painting that speaks